Heaven or Hell?

back together.

2012-01-20T09:47:00.000+08:00

mak cakap, 1 hari nanti.. family kita akn bersatu kembali.. love your family as much as you do, because.. they're your forever soulmates.

MONGA Yao Hui.

2012-01-19T11:04:00.004+08:00

Title: 艋舺燿輝 / Monga Yao Hui
Genre: Drama
Episodes: 73

Lee Wei as Chen Yao Hui 陳燿輝
Michael Zhang as Lu Wen Hao 呂文浩
Jack Li as Xu Fu Cheng 許富成
Shara Lin (林逸欣) as Lin Shu Jun 林淑君
Liang You Lin as as Yu Hui Fang 余惠芳

more infos @here & watch them online!!!

cite ni memang bestttttt sangat2! i recommend it! pasal 4 sahabat baik yg bersumpah mjadi adik bradik dlm gangsters bawah ketua jiang yi lang. apa yg bestnya, dia tunjuklah cara2 hidup gangster. macam dlm bisnes jugak, biasalah org cina.. "i help you, you help me first". duit duit duit, apa lagi kan. bunuh dan tetak org. selamat dan hidup. as usual, manusia tidak pernah hindar drpd perasaan cinta dan kasih sayang, terutamanya sesama kekasih mahupun keluarga. oh and, mak aku pun layan cite ni. dia yg layan dulu! every mon-fri, 6PM @NTV7. stakat ni, episod nak dekat final kott, maybe minggu ni last :( tk tau laa episod ke brapa yg first time aku tgk, episod pasal hui fang bgtau tunangnya/suaminya perkara yg sebenar yg dia ni dari keluarga samseng. then ape ntah jadi, laki tu buta. haaa. yg aku baru dapat tau hui fang sblum ni cinta dgn wen hao. awwww wen hao mmg hensem sangat3!!! ♥ same goes with fu cheng. yao hui pulak, bila aku tengok dia, aku teringatkan GazettE's reita. hahaha and kepada anda semua,, tk rugi tengok cite ni (^^,)v

P.S: walaupun videos d atas ni takde engsub/malaysub tapi tengok melalui riak muka diorg tu da faham da.. :) really inspiring, the 1st video.. oh gawddd memang feeling gile kiss scene tu! uwaaa *melts* and, link yg tengok online tu rasenye byk yg removed by youtube's user. so, sila la search @google kalau nak tengok.. gud luck ye ^^;

ok, da insaf. new chapters.

2012-01-17T22:13:00.000+08:00

i was soo regretting today, really. pagi tadi aku keluar dgn kawan, call her T. aku dgn T da lama kawan since skolah rendah until form1 @MGS. aku patut sedar yg dia ni jenis tk boleh dpercayai.. sering menipu. eventho aku perasan sikap dia tu, tapi aku diam je. i don't even know why tapi hari ni aku da banyak benda perasan and SEDAR! dia tipuuu! (>_<) grrrr geram sgt3! i've wasted rm20+ to rm2 (O__O) NGEE! aku ingat yelaa, dia sendiri cakap "esok keluar jom, tengok wayang" wakluu tgk wayang, duit sapa bro? duit gua ka? anak harun betul! arghh! tk pernah rase semarah camni! tu pun time hangout dgn dia, aku just cool down. mase tu aku dapat rasakan.. dia ni mesti ade duit, simpan dlm pocket.. saje cakap takde, tak bawak.. you bawak berapa? and i was like, uhh @__@ confusinggg~ serabut kepala aku skarang, well at least.. benda da lepas.

mula2 aku spent beli colonel burger 1 set(rm5.90 kot.. lupe plak), utk aku sorang je sebab dia taknak makan. (THOUGHTFUL LAA KONONNYA) then, tiba2 dia suruh aku tanye pepsi berapa.. so i asked for 1. er, aku pulak keluarkan duit. around rm2.70, mampuihh! then, pegi cc pulakk... aaahhh~ best time bila aku dgr gazette's hyena dgn filth in the beauty lepas tu main guitar hero 3's paint in black, time charged around rm6. skali dgn T tu.. so after that, kami pegi ke arcade... i spent rm2 for 2 tokens, main battlegear 4(as usual). well, only me. && then, jalan2.. tangkap gambar. moment taking pictures were the most fun one. last2, beli air.. dahaga pulak. aku PULAK yg belinya. 2 air, rm5. *a very long sigh*

yang agak GILAAAA nyer, boleh pulak dia main2 just joking kononnya nak jual aku?! (O_o) i mean like, dude, WTF?! banyak kali kot dia cakap nak jual aku. kononnya aku ni cantik, comel, mcm doll. ewww! (x_x) dia tanye kalau betul2 jadi ape aku nak buat? lari ahh, aku lari sepuas hati! dia cakap dia akan ikat aku (-_-;) & i was like, "eee jahatx3!!! you're so cruel and evil!" & thus, story end. pengajarannya, aku insaf. taknak keluar dgn dia lagi ever again!!! tk kesah laa minggu depan dia nak keluar lagi, belanja aku cukup2 ke apa. urghh! gilee betul laa. cukup gile, tau tak. haishh (T^T); my bro said.. kawan ni.. trust not 100%.

anywayyss, thanks to Allah! for giving me some ideas, hidayah and petunjuk. syukur Alhamdulillah, please do support me.. aku skarang ni tgh working on my stories! untuk d jadikan, novel. heee. with the help of Nigel, i would give my extra credits and million of thanks to him. we called it 'our project'. haha. mudah2an jadi laaa weiiii, dapat hardcover novel, buat sales around the world. who knows? stakat ni cerita aku tk berapa ok sgt, haha. so were gonna make it more interesting! like i mentioned before, it's a fantasy genre. infact, still ongoing skarang ni. belum completed lagi. thats why mula2 aku pikir, why not i try? nasib baik Nigel ade kawan2 yg kerja star paper and knows people whos into publishing thingy. weeee~ hapee sgt3 ;) fuhh macam2 ler aku bayangkan. boleh jadi famous! XD hahaha! oh and, buat duit! it's like, i will be a writer FOR REAL! GAHHH! this is even more nicer than jawab kertas sejarah spm!

GazettE news.

2012-01-16T20:36:00.003+08:00

recently they perfomed a live final tour Venomous Cell. here's the live report. the GazettE will release their New DVD (2012/05/09), New Single & New Album. album titled DIVISION & release on August 2012, waiting for official annoucement. i loveee ittt ♥ can't wait for the dvd! must download it! *waiting* *gritted teeth* GAHH! (x__X) reitakun is just soo kakkoiiii ♥ excited sangat2 nak tengok suicide circus ngan remember the urge LIVE!

best ways to learn English!

2012-01-16T02:06:00.004+08:00

aku pernah post pasal ni ke? rase macam belum, rase macam dah.. urgh, whatever that is but i'm helping you all!

ok, dengar sini dulu.. org yg speaking kat rumah tk bermakna dia pandai speaking. sama macam org berbahasa kat rumah. kita belajar bahasa melayu pun ade jugak perkataan2 yg kita tk tau, kan? so, same goes with speaking English. bukan semua words yg kita tau. day by day, one by one.

here's some tips to speak well in English,
- baca buku english
(novels, poems, short stories, magazines, news strait times, etc)..
- baca dgn kuat, sebut perkataan2 semua..
- baca seperti anda tengah menceritakan kpd budak2 or org ramai.
- tengok english movies dgn english subtitles(sarikata)
- speaking dgn kawan2, family atau org awam.
- amalkan ayat "thank you" :)

ok, i guess.. tu je kot? haha. camni laa aku belajar speaking yg higher over the top melalui tengok english movies dgn english subs(download), read it out loud, everything @ tips d atas. kalau masuk form6 ambik muet, fuhhh memang english highesttt over the top laa kan. haha. aku tk terer sgt bab grammars. essays pun mcm bengong sikit laa, ishh. aku time kecik dulu 6 tahun(6 years) tk tau cakap melayu.. seriously. tapi ya, aku memang gadis melayu tulen ok? ^^

imagine your own land.

2012-01-16T01:55:00.002+08:00

anda semua da tengok cite Nim's Island?? memang terbaik wa cakap. take Alexandra Rover for an example. oh godd, aku slalu teringin nak jadi macam dia. a writer. seorang penulis. actually, biarin aku menceritain ya.. haha, sejak aku kecik lagi aku suka berimaginasi..berangan-angan.. bukan hal cinta, ok! tapi hal fantasi.. seperti terbang d udara bersama burung2~ keseorangan d tengah2 bidang bunga~ le blehh. kalau aku masuk U nanti, aku ingat nak ambik seni, fotografi, writing/journalist, english or.. law course. arghh antara semua tu laa. hahaha. ok, the point is, apa yg aku 'imaginasi'kan.. um, mcm aku buat cerita laa. boleh d jadikan novel, but not through writing, through my mind of imagination instead.

aku start reka cerita fantasy ni sejak kecik lagi, lebih kurang umur.. 8 tahun? not sure. ingat lagi sampai pernah kat petaling street aku still in process sambung cerita tu. haha. aku beri tajuknya, "& the miracle is..", well you guys boleh bayangkan watak utamanya drpd game Guilty Gear's Ky Kiske. blonde hair.. the outfit same as almost as his, but abit different. namanya Garus(ga-ros). i know, weird name tapi tu laa, nama yg lain drpd yg lain. kadang2 aku boleh imaginasi dia ade dekat dgn aku. cakap dgn aku. HAHA aku bukan gile, ok! tolonglahh faham. tapi camni la org yg suka angan2.

well, to thought of it, memang aku rase bangga sgt. kan best aku betul2 dapat menulis dan jadikan cerita 'imaginasi' aku ni kpd sebuah novel. genre, fantasy. aku susah nak cerita.. kalau face to face, boleh kot? and infront of the laptop, for review. seriously, hubungan aku dgn Garus seperti Alexandra Rover dgn Alex Rover. could say, really crazy but too much mentality. best thing that just happened to me was that, semalam or pagi hari ni kot.. aku sedar.. um, banyak benda yg gila2 memainkan otak fikiran aku ni. macam2 hal, pressure.. tension.. all of it. dalam cerita tu, um, Garus mmpunyai agak ramai ahli keluarga. atoknya, neneknya, maksunya, even mak kepada ayahnya.. kata2 yg bernilai, "Tabah.. Sabar.. dan Kuat." FIGHTING! OH! so, bila my own fictional character has been told by people who loved him to be courage, patient and strong. and what's what? tiba2 Garus muncul dalam imaginasi aku.. suruh aku amalkan "Tabah, sabar dan kuat." arghh! pressure much! but that was quite true actually... hmm.... banyak sgt aku berfikir, haihh. akhirnya, AKU SEDAR! come on, Amelia! you can do it! be courage, patient and strong! for the sake of Allah and mom.. hmm :(

i want to be a writer!!!! i want to have my own site, and my story '&the miracle is'! i want to have fans from all over the world! pray for me. for the best.

anyways, aku da pakai cermin mata balik... haha pernah pakai mula2 dulu time form3.. then, tiba2 mata da ok.. skarang, well.. paham2 jelah kalau da slalu nampak aku online FB. hahaha! prefer to be called as a geek, not nerd :) ok, peace out gangsta!

assalamualaikum,
xscape.

luahan isi hati di tengah malam.

2012-01-15T03:05:00.004+08:00

how surprised. aku baru je post something yg agak BANYAK aku da typed kat wall FB aku. haihh, last2 aku delete. lagipun no point, tk mungkin ade yg baca.. i mean, sedare-mare aku la. pakcik2, makcik2 ngan sepupu2 semua. walaupun aku ade typed "aku tk kesah kome baca or tk baca wall aku ni. sebab ape? sebab ayat kome slalunye 'ADE AKU KESAH'?" <--betul kan? haha. aku bukannya nak benci semua org kat mukabumi ni. takdenye. it just that, bak kata sorang kawan aku ni laa, "manusia mcm buah2an jugak. ade yg manis, ade yg masam, ade yg pedas" aaah, memang betul pun. nak kata aku judge org in so many ways, takde la judge sgt. cuma.. the way i look at people. macam2 hal.

apa yg aku nak kata.. enough la. stop la. just giveup, ok? jangan nak jadi hipokrit, jangan nak fitnah org macam2. apa yg kita dapat? bukan dapat duit pun. kalau nak sesuatu yg kita nak, mintak aje kat tuhan. doa=hajat=wish. takkan tak faham kot?

i'm not saying i'm good macam org mesti nak cakap jangan nak nilai org, tengok cermin dulu la ape laa. aku faham ayat tu. aku memang tengok diri sendiri ni.. aku ade kelemahan dan kekurangan jugak. it just, the main basic of people's behaviour.

contoh, keluarga aku.. maksud aku, keluarga belah mak dan belah abah aku.. dari dulu zaman2 muda mak dan abah aku tu, ade je fitnah dan cite bukan2 pasal mak aku. i'm saying this sebab aku rapat sgt ngan mak aku and shes telling me everything about her life, her past and all. org2 kat kampung dia dulu mcm tk suka dia. mak aku tk tau ape 1 pun wei... abg kakak kahwin pun tk jemput mak aku. arwah opah pun... haish, toksah nak cakap laa. "toksah nak bagi ju ngan anak2 makan..", haa itu laa ayatnye. faham idak? haha. tapi mak aku diam je. mak aku time raye2 kat kampung dulu ngan anak2 kecik lagi, mak aku tk makan langsung selagi opah or tok tak suruh makan. not just them, even adik bradik abah aku pun same.. cite hal2 dulu, memang macam2 hal ler. memang sombong gile ah. seolah2, bayangkan.. kome hidup tenang ngan anak bini cucu ke ape... tiba2, family sendiri mcm tk hiraukan kome. boleh kate macam2. macam2 tu benda yg hina dan keji la. macam kita ni memang TAK BERSALAH LANGSUNG.

like dude, i really hate cite bukan2/gosip/fitnah semua natang tu.

nak lebihkan cite pasal ABAH aku? ish,.. MAN+HUSBAND+FATHER=X. hapa pun tadak. da tua lebih pun still nak tipu lagi. Nabi s.a.w say, people if never change themselves even after 40 years old, they'll remain unchange forever. kalau da jahat, pastu da lepas umur 40, jahat la selama2nya. i've got millions of reason to hate him for hurting my mom, walaupun dia AYAH aku. mak aku kuat. mak aku ni macam orang alim, ustazah walaupun belum dapat hidayah nak tutup aurat kepala. dia boleh berzikir even lebih seribu kali, solah tk pernah tinggal. tiap2 pagi dulu hantar aku gi skolah, dia ade time nak tazkirah aku dalam kereta. dia dulu bukannya skolah KAA ke agama ke, tapi skolah Arab. pengawas asrama, 1 asrama/skolah kenal dia. pernah d gelar puteri lilin. laki2 tk main laaa, belum spm ade hati nak ngorat la nak kahwin la. keje pun blum tentu dapat ke idak, gaji pun blum tentu tinggi ke rendah. dia teramat dekat dgn Allah subhanallahu wa taala.. the best mom i've never had. best gile, best sangat2. seksa? cerai? no, just berserah kpd Allah. yg penting, she protects her children.. stay with her children. i love her and i know the way she is.

hidup ni kalau boleh, don't promise then don't cheat. tapi ni laa.. kehidupan. life is everything. life is an art. aku berdiri d atas tapak mukabumi ni.. aku sedar segala2nya.. aku melihat dunia ni. nampak parah benor nengoknye.

skarang ni ade lagi kan remaja2 slalu tulis kat myspace/facebook diorg, "hate me? go to hell. fcuk you" la ape laa semua ape kejadah. macam bodoh je kan? it's like, ohh, kalau org buat kat hang, tk boleh. tapi kalau hang buat org, boleh pulakk. seriously, perlu ke nak bagi warning kat haters? hate you, tk boleh tapi hate me, boleh pulak. semua ni memang gile.

new inspiration that i realised, semua manusia sombong kan? yes, betul. semua manusia sombong. kalau tak, ade beran nak tegur semua org kat 1 shopping complex? haaaa idak kan? kome ngan kawan/family kome je kan? kalau tegur org lain pun tegur biase jeler. orang awam, biase ler. what i'm saying.. ok, contoh, aku perlukan duit.. keluarga aku perlukan duit sangat2.. nak bayo sewa rumah, nak pindah rumah.. nak makan minum, shopping barang baju semua.. selain kerja or dapatkan projek, ade ke orang nak bantu? takde pun. kalau aku letak signal S.O.S kat FB pun, belum tentu org nak perasan. ade org nak bagi aku sejuta? takdenye weii. takdenye. macam ni laa hidup kat dunia.

Allah bagi kita hidup kat dunia ni, mula2 bodoh.. lepas tu, pandai. mula2 hidup.. lepas tu, mati. cenggitu jeler.. so, seperti yg aku slalu kata, no offense to everyone(jangan terase or tacing lebih) and let's just hope for the best. yakin dan boleh. tabah dan sabar. yang penting, muhasabah diri.

P.S: i love my family. so much. all of them.

ROCK THE WORLD 2012 !

2012-01-01T01:49:00.003+08:00

okayyy, selamat tahun baru+happy new year+akemashite omedetou kepada seluruh warga DUNIA!

so kira, da masuk 5 tahun aku joined blogging ni. oh my sweet diary! hahaha yes yes. disarankan agar jangan share share my blog kat sapa2. yg kpd follow aku ni kire special readers la kot? haha. so things change. time pun fast gile berlalu. yg peliknye ade pulak orang bajet 'anti-yahudi' la, ikut bulan awal muharram la ape la sambut tahun baru ni. of course but that has got nothing to do with bulan Islam, mahupun bulan Buddha(chinese new year) dan lain2. haha. ni da masuk tahun 2012. kira ikut tahun Dunia kita laa kan? agama agama la. dunia dunia la. faham ke idak? so, jangan nak buat issue pulak. hahaha. ramai org dah set azam tahun baru. wuuhuuu! my list of new year's resolutions are... *drums playing*

-jadi anak yg baik & taat kpd ibu
-takkan 'couple', bercinta dan sebagainya berkaitan dgn laki+perempuan
-study smart+hard, banyak baca buku
-rajin2 tolong mak buat kerja rumah
-buat teknik rebonding, nak ubah hairstyle baru! wuu!
-tukar styledressing, all black u knowww! rock on! (>O<)\m/
-dapatkan DSLR, mp3, samsung galaxy tab, iphone 4s. ahaha!
-beli baju kurung baru
-sembahyang penuhhhhh 5 waktu
-makan banyak, banyak, banyak
-simpan duit banyak banyak nak belikan barang2 @animetech
-tknak masuk campur hal orang lain
-jadi pendiam mcm biasa since last recent 2007
-pujuk ira masuk form6 sekali, HAHA!
-motto motto addicted to GazettE ♥
-main game+layan anime+manga+movies sepuas2nya

hmm, that's all kot?? tk pasti laa ade lagi ke tak... tapi, yeah. doa banyak2 agar apa yg kita hajatkan semuanya tercapai. mudah2an (^^,) don't forget to view mi tweet, xscape94. tumblr, diaxromantica.

jadi orang yg berkebolehan, kejayaan akan mengejar anda!

never admit defeat in life.

terima kasih m(_ _)m

assalamualaikum,
xscape.

fikiran..

2011-12-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

... kembali menjadi runsing :(

apapun... aku risau pasal kesihatan mak.. umur dia da melebihi had kot.. hmm, apa nak buat.. ya Allah, sihatkanlah tubuh badan dia dan panjangkanlah umur dia...

keliruuu .

2011-12-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

rasanya... aku tkkan kerja laa. better duduk rumah jaga mak dan buat kerja rumah sendiri. tunggu result bulan 3 dan masuk form6, sambung degree ke Universiti, ambik law course. le blehhh. life is just.. WONDERFUL!

i have decided !

2011-12-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

aku pikir nak keje kat rawang utk sebulan! done! mudah2an dapat gaji mahallll tu dan beli handbag baru utk mak ^^ teehee.

tumberina !

2011-12-12T19:34:00.001+08:00

semalam aku joined Tumblr! bessstt sangat2! da addicted daaa. haha. post byk2 gambar, gambar dari org ke.. mcm blog pun ade laa. here's mine, click here :)

2 days ..

2011-12-11T17:29:00.000+08:00

.. went to Tapah just to see my dad there at work, ate together and talk together.. with mom and kak long. things getting happier and happierr. haha.

paling best bila athirah call aku katanya akn keja kat rawang, bapak dia kan keja kantin dan ada catering, uh, projek baru kat rawang tu.. tk pasti kat mana tapi yeah, bapak dia ajak aku join skali. athirah pun of coursee, dia takde kawan so dia nak aku join dia. i was like, YIPPEEEE !!! tk sabarnya.. aku da dapat restu drpd mak dan abah. Alhamdulillah.. mudah2an dapat lerrrr.. keja cashier je.. kat kedai makan. tukang masak or pramusaji ?? taknak laa, memenatkan kot.. tapi serious, nak tinggalkan ipoh buat sementara... mulakan pengembaraan baru ! then, of course laa.. kena la balik sini utk ambik result spm.. uh, aku baru je apply UPU tadi utk ke IPTA. kena tunggu pd 19hb jan 2012 utk fasa ke-2. i think ahh... masuk tahun 2012 nak check website utk permohonan tingkatan 6. aku nak sambung form 6 dulu.. rasa.. tk ready lagi utk blajar kat U. lagipun nak ambik kos undang2 kot.. tk pasti. mudah2an... everything will be okay, promise.

aku sedar..

2011-12-11T00:37:00.001+08:00

ok, aku ingin meminta maaf kpd semua org dlm hidup jika aku ni byk buat salah.. mulai skarang, aku akn buat hal sendiri.. taknak masuk campur hal orang atau tolong ke apa2 asalkan diri aku ni takde kena mengena. aku akn berdiam diri....

dugaan? atau masalah?

2011-12-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

mcm2 hal berlaku skarang ni.. aku nak fokuskan kpd kahwin lari dgn restu dari ibubapa. yg mana lebih penting utk mengejar kebahagiaan dlm hidup? antara dua2 tu, yg mana lebih penting, takut utk memberitahu hal sebenar atau berani utk menegakkan keadilan? kadang2.. benda yg menyakitkan hati walau sekecil pasir pun boleh menambahkan kesakitan dlm hati. lama2 bertambah.. ya allah.. berilah ketabahan dn lebih kesabaran kpd keluarga aku..

BANZAIII !!!

2011-12-08T01:49:00.000+08:00

syukur Alhamdulillah SPM DA HABISSSS... jealous much ? no need laa, ade yg dah abis dulu dari aku. and yg belum abis lagi, anda akan d habiskan jua. hahaha. yeahhh... skarang ni duduk rumah, jaga mak, buat keja rumah, online, makan, tido, tengok tv. heee :D tu je. end.

aaaa, not. seriously, nostalgic datangggg muncul kat kepala otak aku nii. teringat pasal The Incredibles, my childhood superhero ♥ sooo, punyalah payah cari cd dia. akhirnya dpat jugak.. *relived* trus tengok, hehe.

hapee DECember ! :)

2011-12-01T07:50:00.002+08:00

i guess.. things going well here, a very good condition and all. and theres really so many thingsss happened.. *sigh* semalam mrupakan hari yg agk dahsyat(?!) berpisahnya seorang guru, kawan2, sekolah.. even, kehilangan seorg bapa. salam tahziah kpd ezuddin. aku pernah jumpa ayah dia dulu kat kenduri. hensemm kottt! pakai spek hitam gitu. haha. but, tk sangka ye? tapi yeaa.. kehilangan seseorg buat selamanya lebih perit rasanya drpd kehilangan seseorg buat sementara dlm hidup ni.. stiap pertemuan adanya perpisahan dan stiap perpisahan adanya pertemuan kembali. perpisahan antara jasad dan roh , pertemuan antara dunia dan akhirat. heee :D tahun 2012 is on the way nak datangg, dalam masa.. sebulan? ya. hoping that everything will be justtt okay.

bimbingan mu tetap di hati ku ..

2011-11-30T14:53:00.017+08:00

sedihhhhh sangat2 apabila dapat tau cikgu kesayanganku nak pindahh~ walaupun dekat.. dan, tahun depan pun aku takde da kat skolah tapi.. tetap sedih walaupun hanya suatu perpisahan buat sementara. sape yg suka berpisah dgn org yg tersayang kan? takde sape sukaaaaa oiii. tapi aku percaya, suatu hari nanti.. mahupun hari2 kot, aku akn jumpa dia.. terserempak ke bertembung ke.. setiap perpisahan adanya pertemuan kembali.

aku ingat lagi waktu form 3, semuanya baru2 belakaa.. maklumlahh zaman PMR. hahaha. aku dok blakang skali dlm kelas. mula2 ada cikgu(tk ingat sape) ni yg mengajar seni, then tiba2 tukar pulak... org dok ngata cikgu yg akn mengajar seni nanti tu cikgu yg garang gile. dup dup dup.. bila time seni, cikgu tu masuk kelas 3A2... agak garang laa tapi kome tau laa kan, aku ni jenis suka bersembang2 dgn org2 tua. haha! so, bila dengar cikgu tu potpet2, aku cukup faham sangat perasaan dia. ingat lagi dia cakap pasal ape ntah, pasal kertas lukisan kot agaknya. pelajar dapat kertas lukisan free je, dan dgn hampehnyerr boleh free buang kertas tu bila2 masa. hahaa. aku kalau aku nak sesuatu, aku akn bertindak dan nak jugak sesuatu tu. oleh kerana org dok asyik ngata cikgu garang, tk berani nak dekat la ape la. aku pun dekat2kan ler dgn cikgu tersebut. sampai cikgu pun dok kenal muka aku..

ada suatu malam tu, aku saje laa tengok2 majalah skolah dan type nama cikgu2 kat google. haha. then cuba pulak cikgu 'Roslaini Mohd Saad'.. tap tap tap, terjumpa blog diaa.. follow jela. then ape jadi? aku tk ingat sangat tapi.. kat skolah, ade la kami sembang pasal blog. "Amelia tu kamu ye?" , "ha ah, cikgu.. saye.. hehe" , since beberapa hari lepas tu, org dok ngata aku ni "anak cikgu", ada yg kata "wei, mak hang, amelia.. mak hang da datang da.." , haha ade skali tu agak terkejut laa "mak aku??"..

ade skali tu jugak aku betul2 terharu.. kalau tk silap, waktu form 4 kott? ade time waktu seni tu, aku tengah tensionnn sangat2 dgn karenah budak2 kelas.. urghh ingat aku tk tau ke tiap2 kali waktu seni, mesti diorg suruh aku tolong buat ini la itu laa, mcm buli gamaknya bak kata athirah. ada masanya aku ikhlas menolong.. ada masanya malas.. lebih2 lagi bila org tu 'sengaja' meminta tolong.. i mean like, tak bermakna org yg pandai melukis tu org yg berseni atau ada tangan seni. melukis mengikut arah yg kita inginkan.. ikut arah tu, kemudian dapat la dia d jadikan benda yg kita nak. faham tak? kalau tk faham, takpe. haha. bak kata org melayu, pelan2 kayuhh. then, cikgu cakap "kenapa amelia moody je.." lepas tu tk ingat sangat kata2nya tapi lebih kurang mcm "siapa buat dia, siap laa..", kalau "lu langsi lu mati" pun boleh laaa. hahaha! aahh, then, smua budak cakap "haa tu diaaa..." something like that la, err.. sumpah tk ingat sgt time tu..

ada masanya kita bergembira sama2, joke sama2.. dan ada masanya aku tension dan dia pun tension. sama2 bertension-tension... actually i don't mind all that happened.. deep in the heart, i'm really happy..

kepada cikgu roslaini, saya minta maaf kalau selama ni.. memang, saya memang banyak buat salah kat cikgu. saya rasa bersyukur sangat2 dapat cikgu yg memang terer hal2 seni bagai ni. kemunculan cikgu la yg buatkan sy semakin rasa 'muncul' dalam bidang seni yg memang sy minat sejak dari kecil lagi. saya sangat menghargai akn didikan & bimbingan cikgu selama ni di SMKRC.. and i would say i'm very lucky to have you as my art teacher, hehehe.. saya sayang cikgu... muah muah muahhhh ~

segala2nya yg berlaku ada hikmahnya.. ada hikmahnya time salam-salaman minta restu SPM/STPM drpd cikgu2 hari tu, bila turn nak salam kat cikgu roslaini, aku mula menangis.. betul2 menangis.. terharu sangat2 weii.. infact, aku tgh hampir nak menangis skarang ni. hmmmm :')
this entry is specially dedicated to cikgu roslaini ♥

lonely .

2011-11-30T10:02:00.003+08:00

malam tadi tengok Mnet Asian Music Awards (MAMA) @ 8tv. memang bestttt sangatttt. haha. and paling best lagu Lonely menang dlm best vocal performance group, they deserved it !~♥

tapi yg paling BESTO BESTT kan, cite Arthur Christmas will be on cinemaa, tk ingat tarikh bila. tapi aku nak sangattt tengok. tk sanggup nak tunggu brrip keluar daa. haha sebab apa aku suke sgt? sebab voice actor dia James McAvoy ♥ soo handsome (;

remembering the urge..

2011-11-29T08:26:00.000+08:00

not the Gazette's song but.. uh, i guess, those bad things will be in a good condition sometime.

kelas tambahan seni .

2011-11-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

pagi yg indahh, memang tk rugi kalau datang.. seriously, sejak aku lahir lagi aku memang minat dgn seni. ramai yg tak percaya yg time kecik2 aku tk pegi blajar tadika pun, tapi instead duduk rumah dok melukis.. saat paling nakal pun dok melukis kat dinding. hahaha. itu pun kat rumah lama la.. benda sekeliling banyak da berubah. kawan2, atau segala situasi.. lagi2 pada diri sendiri, kan. bak kata orang putih, things change.

bak kata cikgu roslaini, "you must score psv A+"

mudah2an.. aku memang nak score A+ utk seni.. aku memang jarang melukis or bermain2 dgn watercolor. tapi kali ni, aku akn keluarkan segala bakat2 yg ada selama ni..

beep beeppppp ..

2011-11-23T11:14:00.001+08:00

duk rumah, makan, tido, tengok tv, study.
LIFE.. is just.. WONDERFUL !

sincerely from me .

2011-11-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

my point is--do appreciate the one who loves you. don't be like "ooh she loves me, shes into me but im already into someone else." oh pleasee, that was like months or several years ago since i fell in love with you. love is blind. it can be blinding everywhere towards family, friends, pets and even toys for godsake ! that doesn't mean "i love Allah, i want to make love with Him harder and harder." ok that sounds gay but ASTAGHFIRULLAHALZIM no ! that's not it. love is an appreciation in the heart. without love, you can't live but yr being evil instead :')

either way, tinggal brape paper lagi ? 3!!!!! mwahahaha! mudah2an dapat laa aku buat yg terbaik gile2 yg terbaik weii. tadi paper pend. islam pun Alhamdulillah senang! ntah ngape si fizi cakap senang aku pulak cakap susah. haha! bak kata org2 dulu, benda yg lepas tidak usahlah dikenang, ecewahhh! ewah ewahh!

another day .

2011-11-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

<-- seee? the new picture of me for this blog XD haha. buruk kan, takpe it's ok. things going ok here. financial problem? semakin ok sejak abah kerja kat tapah balik... so tadak broke2 da buat skarang. kalau idak, kena dok pikiaq cari duit naa. hahaha. hmm, lagi 6 paper nak d pertarungkan. antaranya subjek agama, sains, seni ngan sastra. haihh. can't wait for 5 DECEMBERR & I'M FREEEE, BANZAIIII ! doakan aku yg terbaik & berjaya ya... miss you guys ! hmm, kakak ipar nak ajak gi bercuti kat terengganu tapi mak cakap kat JB pun ok jugak. agak2 ape laa masa depan aku ni.... kahwin ngan sape.. kerja ape.. pegi mane.. study mane.. dok mane.. macam2 teringin nak di termenungkan.. tapi, berserah jela kpd Allah.. hanya Dia yg tau masa depan aku. tapi aku cuma berharap yg berbaik bagi masa depan aku ni.

alhamdulillah..... hee

2011-11-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

aku dan Athirah da berbaik kot.. bukan secara official. sebab tadi pun dia text katanye mintak maaf dan bagai tapi aku tk balas lagi. tunggu jela, nak dia tegur aku dulu. hehe (^^,) somehow, i do belive that.. everything happens for a reason.

jgn laa begini ..

2011-11-16T16:52:00.000+08:00

tadi aku ngan Athirah, kira.. mcm.. gadoh.. slalunya dia pujuk or taknak lepaskan aku. tapi kali ni, dia betul2 buat tk hirau, langsung tk tegur. kertas 2 tadi tlah buat aku hilang tumpuan, aku nanges depan Zainab.. ish.. sampai hati dia tau tk. sebab tu la, org slalu cakap "nasihat kwn ang tu" ape la ni la tu la. masalahnyeee.... si Athirah ni susah utk d nasihatkan. dgn prangai yg degil, asyik risau bukan2. dah la risau, tp tk buat apa. such a waste of time, bukan? suke hati la.. tp ingat, slalunya org2 yg buatkan aku sakit hati or sedih, org2 tu akan d timpa masalah. berdasarkan sumpahan kluarga aku, mcm ni laa. just wait & see. hmm, skarang pulak.. aku da hilang semangat nak periksa.. haishhhh.........

day 1 of spm .

2011-11-14T22:06:00.001+08:00

syukur Alhamdulillah aku boleh jawab semua paper hari ni.. tapi wallahualam laa kan, aku cuma harapkan yg terbaik. d pagi yg indah kat skolah tadi, aku datang je nampak budak2 form5 semua study sama2, ada yg sembang jugak la. klau aku nak study pagi2 kat skolah, mmg tk akan dapat focus. apatah lg nak hafal 1 bende dari buku kan. haha. apapun, rasa nervous & takut still ada dlm diri. i don't know why tapi aku rasa agak sedikittt yakin. mungin d sebabkan sokongan dari org ramai, ibu & guru2 terutamanya. hari ni abis exam BM kertas 1 & 2, seni kertas 1. ramai yg cakap senanggg, dia kluar soalan2 yg senang. boleh tahan laa. yg penting, aku jawab pun asyik menulisss je. kire ok la tu kan? haha. tapi nasib baik la aku tk buat pun dlm dewan yg besarr gitu, nanti prasaan lg nervous & yeah, seakan2 semua org tengok kat kite, kan. instead kat dlm kelas tingkat atas je, kecik je. tk tau la brape height x length. hmm. mudah2an dapat laa score yg bagus3, A ke B ke.. aaaa tk tau laa. tk boleh nak agak. apa yg kita da jawab, maka itu la yg seadanya. eceyyy. haha. so, esok exam ENGLISHHHH (>O<)/ doakan aku yg terbaikkkk !

1 hari je lagi ..

2011-11-12T19:08:00.002+08:00

mhhmmmmmmmmmmm :(

11.11.11

2011-11-11T19:57:00.000+08:00

a special day..

aku rasa terharuuuu sangat2 dan happy. d skolah tadi ada majlis mohon restu salam2an kat cikgu2 semua. seriously, paling terharu skali bila dengar apa yg d katakan oleh cikgu roslaini. yes, aku rasa dlm family ni, aku sorang je yg akan ikut jejak abah aku, aku harap aku dapat masuk form6.. and masuk Universiti. abg2 dan kakak2 aku dulu lepas spm, masuk kolej je. skarang kerja, alhamdulillah gaji cukup2 utk hidup. balik pd cite tadi, mula2 salam cikgu2 yg bukan guru mp aku tapi bila turn cikgu roslaini je, aku trus mula mnangis. then lama2 da oke da.. da reda da.. balik pd cikgu rosmawar ke sape ke, aduii tk ingat pulak, start nanges balik. hahaha.. hidup ni.. aku sering kata pd diri sendiri yg aku ni jahat, byk dosa, bodoh, hodoh dan bagai. but yes, of course, setiap pandangan org adalah berbeza kan? mungkin aku tk patut memperkecilkan diri sendiri. Allah yg bagi aku rupa begini, so, Alhamdulillah. 2 hari je lagi.. esok nak gi tapah ambik abah aku. errr, mudah2an laaaa ade mood nak study. aku jarang study hari sabtu & ahad, haha. mudah-mudahan laa ye.. mudahhhhh......... apapun, nasib baik aku bawak camera tadi, MWAHA! byk sangat gambar dehh. yg merupakan "IMPIAN TERCAPAI" bila dapat tangkap gmba bersama abg long guaaaa ♥ hahaha i've known him since i was form3, and he's form5. were very close... i think? for me laa, kalau dia, tk tau. haha. org cakap dia ni tegas, garang.. err, aku tk fikir pun semua tu. sebab yg penting, dia baik kat aku. hahaha! tapi yeah, dia mmg baik.. baik sangat2.

dia bukan pakwe/balak/boyfriend aku (^^,)v
keciknyer aku...........

aku ingin memohon seribu ampun & maaf kpd semua yg aku kenal dalam hidup ni.. doakan aku berjaya dlm SPM.

not much to say .

2011-11-06T23:10:00.000+08:00

hari rabu ni kakak aku akan melahirkan anak pertamanyaaaa~ melalui operation. mudah2an dia akan ok saje. pd masa yg sama, aku akn mghadapi gerak gempur. YAY ! haha. good luck for me. aku akn cuba sedaya upaya ! study study study !

selamat hari raya ..

2011-11-05T20:18:00.003+08:00

Aidiladha kepada semua muslimin & muslimah.

penat , tido .

2011-11-02T15:16:00.002+08:00

senang je hidup skarang kan? like, o mai godddd! come on Amelia, come on! wake upppppp! aku kena rajinkan diri ngan buku2 & paper2 semua. urghh, hari ni.. cikgu Z bagi aku semangat utk study science. i don't know why tapi aku da brape kali bertembung ngan L from 5RK., last2 dia mintak tolong aku suruh binding papers kat pss. well, mcm2 dia cakap.. ade yg buat aku terase tapi aku just gelak2 and diam. ada 1 time tu, we stares at each others and dia cakap "janganlah tengok aku, takut. haha" , seriously his eyes are so big & black. cute pun ade. haha. time tu aku rase agak penat sikit, malas nak cakap banyak or fikir banyak2 dalam hati. well he's the brother of K form6. dia ade tanye mcm mana aku kenal dia? aku tk tau nape aku cakap dari kawan. urghh bodohnye mulut aku ni. haha padahal yeahh, aku kenal dia.. just kenal sendiri jela. like, "oh that's the guy.." and anyways, dia tk perasan ke yg dia slalu muncul kat depan warga SMKRC? hahaha! he talks like dia fikir dia ni pandai sgt and org lain bodoh & bangang. seriously aku tk tau la kan, only he knows himself and others don't. macam adik Athirah, kadang2 manusia ni fikir like it's all about your life, but it's not just all about you. i mean, masing2 ada kehidupan sendiri, jangan fikir hidup ko sendiri. masalahnya, hidup ko ni berkaitan dgn manusia2 sekeliling. like, being attached to each others. and aku ni bukannya kutuk mengutuk or what, it just based on my mind. no offence to L or anyone that been mentioned in this blog.

cuma, first time aku rase rendah diri.. Athirah pernah rasa rendah diri terhadap aku sbab dia fikir aku ni pandai la ape la. but now, aku rase aku ni bodoh.. and orang tu pandai sangat. rasa segan pun ada. fr example laa kan, i think that, my English is the best in myself and i know English the best. aku mmg boleh cakap british, if i wanted to. kadang2 aku cakap british dlm hati whenever i'm doing something. agak rare laa. semuanya Harry Potter punya pasal! haha. tapi, ada yg lebih terrorrr speaking English drpd aku, aitee.

apapun, aku mmg tk suka.. or kadang2 aku just diam je bila org cakap "kamu ni pemalas, tu sebabnya!" , aku mmg tk suka. sebab apa? aku mmg sedar lamaaa da yg aku ni malas, malas, & malas. andd bila org cakap yg kita ni pemalas, fikiran kita pun berkata "urghh aku tau aku ni malas, so tk payah nak ingatkan balik!" (-_-;) haa kire mcm tu laa. haha. so the conclusion is, hidup kita melibatkan semua orangg. org slalu cakap "we're all not perfect", padahal we are perfect! we are the God's creations, fr God's sake! & we should be proud of it. tidak kira kurus mahupun gemuk, cantik mahupun hodoh, pandai mahupun bodoh, semuanya adalah hikmah drpd Tuhan. setiap org mempunyai kekurangan & kelebihan. hmm, aku rase aku penah mentioned semua ni... in the previous post. whatever la kan? as long as we're fine with it, must deal with it.

for now, aku kena yakinkan diri! aku kena cari balik mana keyakinan & kerajinan aku ni.. tk sangka org cakap yg tahun lepas aku ni rajin sgt2.. i just thought, tk tau la kan, sebab pernah dgr cerita aku ni rajin, org kutuk pulak aku ni poyo. padahal? arghh malas nak cakap. tapi aku tk penah anggap diri aku ni pandai or rajin walaupun iye. macam tadi sembang ngan L tu, dia tanye aku ni budak pandai ke.. aku pun tergamam kejap. i mean, yelaa, aku mmg tk berani nak cakap "aku ni budak pandai!", err.. mcm pelik. aku pun cakap la "yela kot.. entah la." dia cakap aku ni kurang yakin, i know.. i am kurang yakin pd diri sendiri. & aku tk tau nape, wondered why. bagi aku, suka hati org nak cakap "eii Amelia, kamu ni budak pandai tau.. kamu ni rajin ye.", haa dari situ kita boleh rasa bersyukur Alhamdulillah..♥ setiap pandangan org adalah berbeza, bukan? aku sendiri tk sedar.. tapi aku ni memang dari kecik lagi, mak aku slalu cakap "amelia budak pandai tapi malas.." ahahaha aku tgh hidap penyakit malas kot? tu laa sebabnya. lebih2 lagi aku ni skarang asyik makan, tido, makan, tido.. memang da jadi extreme malas la. nak study pun agak jarang jugak la. hahaha!

tapi yeah, like i said earlier.. anyone, and i do mean everyone. tolonglaa sayaaa! saya nak jadi budak rajin, pleasee... bagi semangat! and i know, cuma aku je yg boleh berubah. dgn itu, aku perlukan semangat drpd cikgu2, & kawan2. family? of course, the first priority. tapi family skarang pun ada mcm2 masalah, mostly financial, duit. susah jugak la. hidup ni memang penuh dgn manusia yg macam2 ragam kan? macam2 masalah & bagai. kita cuma kena bertawakkal & bersabar je.. berusaha yg paling penting skali. SPM tinggal brapa hari da... rasa takut mmg wajib.

jamuan PPS 2011 :)

2011-10-31T19:26:00.000+08:00

@ hotel heritage ipoh with ♥

alhamdulillah..

2011-10-27T16:28:00.000+08:00

ayah cakap dia akn kerja kat tapah mulai bulan depan.. insyaallah nak pindah rumah. kat mana eh? bercham kot.. tk tau ler. mudah2an ye... yg pastinya, mak akan kerja ngan mak Athirah.. and so am i :) insyaallah jugak bulan depan kakak akn dapat baby sulungnyaaa ♥ hehehe ate, dapat le awok jadi maksu nii :))

hapee deepavali ..

2011-10-26T14:57:00.000+08:00

to all hindu friends!

things could have been changed but as i thought.. living in the poverty is not that bad. duduk rumah tolong mak buat kerja rumah. ada masa lapang, study & buat latihan apa yg patut. kalau gi skolah yg slalunye takde cikgu masuk, nanti takde mood nak blajar pulak. sembang2 dgn kawan je.. hehe. slain tu, online fb sebab contact dgn kawan2.. selebihnya, download movies.. Becoming Jane, Penelope, Captain America the first Avenger, The Losers, and so on.. lol. overall, aku langsung takde mood nak blajar.. seriously, due to family problems. rase nak kerja je.. tapi mak mesti tk bagi. tapi aku taknak mak kerja.. mak kan da tua, patut duduk rumah dan rehat. semuanya bergantung kpd abg dan kakak je. nak pegi mana2 pun tk boleh, duit nak isi minyak petrol bukannya slalu ade pun.. cukup2 utk aku gi skolah je. kadang2 langsung takde. thanks to Athirah, rm100 memang cukup bermakna utk mak aku. well, guna utk apa yg patut jela. other than that, aku mmg terlalu jauh drpd nak pegi shopping beli baju ke apa.. truthfully, i am really envy of others. hari tu aku ade tanya Daniel Faez kalau boleh nak pinjam DSLR utk jamuan PSS sabtu ni, tgk muka dia dan cara dia cakap pun da tau da dia mmg taknak bagi.. katanya kakak yg pegang that damned camera. tapi tengok2 kat fb, bukan main upload gambar2 kat pool.. rasenye dia mmg guna dslr tu. kalau bukan, i am terribly sorry but if it is, tk boleh nak kata apa. manusia skarang mmg mementingkan diri, xpecially kejam. susah nak jumpa org yg baik.. org slalu cakap aku ni baik, urghh takde la. apa yg aku tau, takde sape yg boleh jadi sebaik Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. no one can. dalam hidup, kita hanya boleh berharap untuk yg terbaik!

happeninggg !

2011-10-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

fedup dgn perangai & sikap manusia yg bermacam2 ragammmm, urghh! sabar jelaaaa X) yes, just keep quiet, shut up and diam. hahaha! apapun... *sighh. agak tension skarang nii, semakin spm nak dekatt semakin blurr otak. hmmm. nak nangissss T_T

makannnnnnnn :D

2011-10-16T16:04:00.002+08:00

skarang ni asyik makan, tido, makan, tido. zzzz bila laaa nak study niii. tkpe, isnin-jumaat study mood. sabtu-ahad makan&tido mood! ahahahaha XD

friends? forever ? ceramah? ahaaa .

2011-10-13T23:21:00.002+08:00

anda cubatry kira tiap2 huruf dalam perkataan 'friends' dgn 'forever', semua ade 7 kan? 7th Heaven, greatest place in the outer world. kadang2 bukannya smua org faham maksud 'sahabat' or 'kawan' or 'best friends'... friends are like, the greatest place that we can mengadu on, talking about our problems and all stuff. friends are one that wouldn't believe bad rumours that people said about their friends. mcm taik kan? ade 1 kes ni... kesian sorang kawan aku ni asyik tk datang skolah sebab lonely, takde sape2, kene boycott laa kononnya dlm 1 skolah ni.. dia ade banyak sgt masalah, masalah family, friends and CINTA... urghh. yeah. otak dia da tension gile2 da.. sampai da tahap maximum dia cakap "hidup aku da takde makna da.." , haihhh kesian........ tu laa, tlg laa bersembahyang.. byk2 berdoa. hmm. tapi, yg BODOHnya.. ade sorang kawan(girl B) dia ni, bajet hot. sanggup ketepikan KAWAN semata2nya utk EX BOYFRIEND yg merupakan 'baru sahaja' EX BOYFRIEND si kawan(girl A) aku ni. and girl B pun pikir laa, dia da penat da jadi 'kawan baik' kpd si girl A. kata dia, agaknya betul laa benda2 buruk yg org cakap psal girl A ni. pergghh. mcm tu ke 'SAHABAT'? 'SAHABAT' yg sanggup percaya gosip2 buruk pasal 'SAHABAT BAIK' dia sendiri. 'SAHABAT BAIK' merupakan.. seseorang yg takkan berputus asa, sanggup tlg aaaaaape saje demi 'SAHABAT'nya. seseorang yg sanggup d benci oleh org ramai semata2 utk melindungi 'SAHABAT BAIK'nya. memang susah nak jadi org baik ni.. but why not, well, at least.. give it a try?

kadang2 aku terpikir jugak.. Allah bagi DUNIA ni kat kita... utk jadikan ia lebih menarik, DIA buatkan 1 game.. ke mana saja kita pegi, DIA nampak je kita.. mcm kita main monopoly, kan. segala masalah adalah cabaran, so kita anggap ia sbg dugaan. jgn laa kata nak salahkan tuhan yg semua baik buruk berlaku. padahalllll, kita sendiri yg buat salah. sejak 1 2 3 menjak ni, aku baru sedar.. "manusia lah yg penyebab dunia ni nak khiamat.." hahaha betul kan? betul laaa tuuuu. tk payah nak NAFI kan lagi (-_-")b hmm.

tapi, memang, bukan senang, walaupun bukan susah.. things change. and things take times. pelan2 kayuh.. org toksah la nak kata "pakai la tudung, tutup la aurat" and org lain pun kata "belum bersedia.. not yet not yet". perkara yg sebetul2nya ialah.. apabila kita rajin bersembahyang.. yes, no.1 thing is SOLAT! once we always perfom a solah, insyaAllah.. benda2 yg baik akn datang kat kita. masa tu bermula laa kita rase nak tutup aurat, pakai tudung dan sebagainyaaaaaa... org slalu kata "eleh, wanita yg pakai tudung pun bukannya baik pun" , haa itu sebab.. maybe la kan, org start pakai tudung dari kecik.. itupun parents yg suruh, xpecially dari family yg kuat agama la kan. tapi, tgk laa, org tu pakai tudung dulu sebelum start solat. adakah itu betul? tettttt xxxx. lagi correct kalau org solat dulu then start dapat HIDAYAH & PETUNJUK CAHAYA YEARGHHHHH! utk menutup aurat n sbagainya.. zzzz. some people just don't get it, right? tgk laa, mcm mak aku, orgnya mmg.. perghhhh, mcm ustazah. kalah ustazah, kan? haha. tapi tgk laa, dia tk pakai tudung pun D: shes just.. not ready yet. dia kata insyaallah, she will. yeah. aku pulak, toksah laa.. bukannya baik, and solat pun not really completed. pakai tudung? tu pun sebab, nanti ape org cakap kan? HAHAHA (._.) yeah, kdg2 aku keluar pun tk pakai tudung. my long curly hair is even worse than tarzan.

OKAY OKAYYY, forget about itttt. not really important when talking about me. the thing is, friends. friends would do anything for their own companions. bak kata sasterawan, hidup d dunia biarlah berbuat baik~

assalamualaikum,
xscape .

Selamat Pagi Malaysia !

2011-10-13T11:05:00.002+08:00

lagi........3 minggu...... errrrrr, study study study !

panassssss .

2011-10-12T14:37:00.000+08:00

agak lan _ _ bila ade minah bajet power high-up sangatt boleh plak cakap "aihh, nak cari msalah dgn aku ke?" secara diam2 plakkkk tuu. awat tk cakap depan2 je? nampak sgt pengecut (-___-) grrrr sabar jelaaa, tkde mase nak dok pikir pasal dia, none of my business, anyway.

hot, yet hapee .

2011-10-11T14:33:00.000+08:00

agak tk puas hati Athirah tk datang skolah tadii, balas dendam yaaa sebab aku tk pegi semalam (-_-) dia tk datang pun aku tk bising ape bagaii, da cakap sorry beribu kali daaa. apapun, kinda happy sebab ade abg ksygn dengar cakap aku ♥ ngeheheheh. overall, hari ni bosan...... takde mood nak belajar pulakk, tkpe, today is today. and tomorrow is tomorrow. let's just hope, for the BEST! okayy, adiosss !

courage isnt the absence of fear .

2011-10-11T00:30:00.000+08:00

to have faith in yourself
you have to believe in urself
if you dont want too its fine
but make sure you're not doing it
because you want too
not because your not the same,
same as someone else
if everyone didnt wanna do something
cause they think they arent as good
we wouldnt be where we are today
sometimes you just gotta close your eyes
take that leap of faith
and see wat happens
and if you fall
ill catch you .

the sky is crying .

2011-10-10T15:40:00.000+08:00

those words... are so meaningful

to every girls in this precious life ~♥

never rains but pours .

2011-10-10T15:32:00.000+08:00

time makan tadi, tiba2 rasa ngantok.... (=_=)~

hari ni.... agak membosankan, lagi2 bila takde kawan d sebelah. aku duk rumah pun jaga mak, tolong mak, macam2 keja ade. yg paling penting, ikut cakap mak. tadi pun tk pegi skolah sebab teringat mak aku cakap "gi skolah esok? eee tk payah laaa ;) hehee" , & thus, aku pun bangun pagi subuh tadi, pikir2... tknak la gi skolah, kang lain pulak jadinya. apapun, today is today. tomorrow is tomorrow. segala2nya ada hikmah, Allah kata, dengar cakap ibu, and you'll be saved. err, i don't knowww..... lately, aku asyik tk sihat je. masalah jiwa & raga kot? hahaha. God knows how i missed Athirah so much D: hmm, just want to say, Good Luck to all stpm candidates in MUET ! family aku skarang ni kinda out of money.. Alhamdulillah abg aku da ade keje balik... mudah2an Allah sentiasa mlindungi family aku & lindungi family aku drpd sebarang muhsibah & kesusahan. just perlu banyak2 bersabar je. pasal study, oke kott.. seriously, trial mmg susah... merapu aku jawab semua, and of course laa, ade yg tk tau pun sebab tk BACA. oh chyeahh, rambut aku da semakin panjang daaa :D teehee ♥

pursuing my true selfff !

2011-10-06T07:05:00.000+08:00

okay, so.. semalam petang aku tgh baring2, rase nak tido je.. ngantok sangat2 mata aku ni haaa. then tiba2 mak aku datang, dia ingat aku ni nanges. aku cakap laa eh takde la? dia tengok muka aku sedih je. then aku tertido.. tuptuptupp tiba2 mak kejutkan aku, katanya nak pegi jumpa kakak kat bercham. i was like haa? so sudden. then, on the way ke sana, nampak kakak kat pintu rumah. we come and, mak cakap ngan dia, semua peluk2. aku memang time tu nanges teruk2. macam mak cakap kat kakak, aku ngan abg2 kak long semua slalu mimpi pasal dia. mimpi yg dia da balik. aku pulak mimpi kakak pegang tangan aku. and last nite, a dream came true. syukur Alhamdulillah. kakak asyik peluk aku lama2. aku nanges.. nanges and nanges, muka sedih+marah+happy. kakak da jadi pregger. dia cakap aku da jadi auntie daa... mommy da jadi grandma. huuu ♥ dapat pangkat MAKSU! insyaallah bulan depan dia akan bersalin. then mak ajak suruh balik kejap, jumpa ayah ngan abang kat rumah. hmm, ternyata rambut aku lagi panjang dari dia. hahaha! so yeahh, hari ni dia akan balik lagi. oke laa tu, raya haji nanti boleh raye ngan dia skali. family2 semua boleh jumpa dia. toksah nak tanya lagi "mana hanie? mana hanie?" , ehh sial lah ! hahahaha! XD so, everything are quite okayyy. except for my abah, yang malasss nak cari kerja and all. abang aku pulak dok kat rumah je, tunggu kerja. dia da banyak apply kerja da kat mana2 tempat, insyaallah akan dapat. hmmm, my family are kinda out of money now. but no worries, mak cakap berdoa kepada Allah, cakap dgn Dia. apa yg kita nak, mintak dekat Dia. ahaaaaaaa.......... bosan bosan. anyways, skarang aku dalam MOOD STUDYY ! YOSSHHAAAA ! buat banyak study, latihan ! it just that, need a place to be calm in. heee (;

mam, pos.

2011-10-05T14:38:00.002+08:00

ahahaha senang cakap. hari ni aku agak, rajin study laa. takde merayap! just pegi toilet and ps je nak buat latihan maths. aku dh nekad, (maybe?) tapi aku nakkk, aku nak focus study. so please please pleasee, do support me! aku tknak pikir apa2 masalah da, kat skolah ke, kat luar ke, kat rumah ke, ape2 jelaaaa. da laa skarang tension dok pikir psl ORANG ITU. sakit hati, menyentuh perasaan dan jiwa serta raga. i don't mind, i don't care. i've already get used to it. aku tk kisah kalau aku slalu sedihhhhhh, aku tk penah akan happy sepenuhnya dalam hati walaupun kawan2 buat lawak bodoh ke gelak2 ke. but seriously, hari ni Athirah memang buat lawak pasal badan gerak2 konon dok kat kerusi ogawa tu. hahaha! lawak siott. so, iPhone 4S da kluar eh? congratssss. heeee (; jelesnyerrr. URGHH NO TIME TO JEALOUS! aku nak date ngan buku2 ku yg tersayanggg ♥

anyway, tengok niiii ~ kenali wanita !

a) Tanah - anak pertama, kelima, kesembilan.
b) Air - kedua, keenam, kesepuluh
c) Api - ketiga, ketujuh, kesebelas
d) Angin- keempat, kelapan, keduabelas

WANITA BERUNSUR TANAH
1) Merendah diri,serta hormat dan patuh, setia serta
rela berkorban.
2) Tidak cerewet, tidak meninggi diri, tidak
sombong dan bukan seorang pemarah.
3) Tenang diri, aman, dan memberi sokongan.
4) Tidak suka membantah atau membangkang
5) Berwatak manis, lemah lembut, bersih dan
sentiasa menjaga kecantikan.

WANITA BERUNSUR AIR
1) Menghidupkan hati pasangan dan pemberi
semangat.
2) Mengambil berat
3) Hatinya bersih dan boleh membahagiakan
pasangan
4) Menenangkan pasangan.
5) Sangat romantis
6) Mudah menangis

WANITA BERUNSUR API
1) Cintanya sentiasa hangat dan memberahikan
2) Cergas, cepat dlm gerak geri dan tangkas
menguruskan rumah tangga.
3) Penasihat yang baik
4) Pandai dan cekap mengurus rumahtangga
5) Pandai menghias diri agar kelihatan cantik selalu
6) Berwaspada selalu

WANITA BERUNSUR ANGIN
1) Lemah lembut dan menenangkan
2) Pandai bermain kata dan memujuk rayu
3) Sopan santun dan berbudi pekerti mulia
4) Bijak mewujudkan suasana selesa.
5) Hati yang cepat berubah ubah

soo... aku anak kelima.. everything about the Earth element is sooo ABIT true about me .__. teehee ! bosan pun ada.... nak tido la.. semakin hari, semakin tension. bukan aku je, orang lain pun. tidak kira tua atau muda. masing2 ada masalah tersendiri. aku teringat kata-kata inspektor, memang interesting sangat2!

"dalam kahwin kat siam atau mana2 tanpa restu mak bapak, dari segi perkahwinan, memang sah. dari segi peraturan Islam, tidak sah. bagi dari segi undang-undang Negara/Negeri, tidak diiktirafkan!"

hahaha i don't know why, tapi kata2 dia tu memang interesting gile! err.. oke laa, nak out.

rain rain come here .

2011-10-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

pagi tadi, fuhhh hujan lebat... dah la pagi2 aku tgh sedih, rase nak nanges je. then, suddenly, water started to wet up those clouds. hari ni 7 org je datang... sungguh membosankan without Athirah. aku malas nak lepak dgn... someone tk boleh d sharekan cerita. too complicated. aku sempat lagi tidooo, memang nyenyak gile. dah laa sejuk! (>.<)~ esok, doakan aku yg terbaik.. aku ada something untuk buat.. bertindak mengikut perasaan, hati dan naluri.

hapee OCToberrr (:

2011-10-02T19:54:00.000+08:00

okayy, so, i just realised that yesterday was the 1st of october. and thusss, tadi aku pegi date ngan suhaily ♥ aww best gileee, dpat gak released tension asyik duk kat rumah doing nothing je. mostly, being alone. yeah. kami pegi ke jusco. spt biasa le, ramai orang le. hampir abis duit aku ni weiii ! hahaha paling suke bila dpat tgk banyakkk baju kurung yg cantik2 8) teeheee . enjoyy the piccies.

credit to suhaily ♥

ahaaaa, esok skolahhh. time to get busy busy studyinggg. seriously, aku perlu LEBIH DAN MESTIII memperbaiki segala pelajaran aku -__-"

assalamualaikum,
xscape .

death wink .

2011-09-30T23:18:00.003+08:00

oohh yeahhh, dah lama tk update blog. things getting really really, i mean, really complicated and no one seems to understand my feelings. tho when i saw her tears, i started to feel pity on her. i know it's my fault for all this everything. i'm sorry for being a bad student....

either way, i seems to be hapeee with the 'brother' of mine. haha my senior, that is. kinda jealous or something2 unhappy feeling when i saw him *tettt* with any girls around him. chyeah, i'm jealous. so what? i'm not yr rockstar :/ kinda hapee that were kinda, kindaaa, kind of close together. a bit, i guess? err, pelan2 kayuh laa bak kata org. dia asyik tadak kredit, haishh u__u" 3 years pendam perasaan, sampai bila boleh luahkan? nuuuuuu. hahaha. i do miss him, miss the old times when i was form3. such great friend makes a better life. err, merepek suda. haha. well dia pun tk jadi leader of the prefects. H? f him. mwahahahaha! so.. yeah..... senior year. rase nak nanges pun ade sebab tahun ni last. tu pun insyaAllah aku masuk form6 nanti. ikut jejak abah aku. huhu. so, selain tu, trial pun sudah abessss. gawdd, aku memang bodoh sebodoh-bodohnya, puas hati? haha. confidence first came to me then, it suddenly went off somewhere and i am soooo screwed up.

nyan nyann ♥ marilaaa dekat kpd ku, wahai 29hb october(jamuan pps). hahaha tk sabar nak pakai baju kurung khas sponsored dari spupu ku, zainab. warna pinkkk gituu ♥ being excited makes me doesn't want to sleep. syukur Alhamdulillah, musuh2 kepunyaan Athirah tlah pun KALAHH. chehhh waaa, tkde ah. mula2 Athirah sendiri yg minta maaf kat sorang budak form3 ni. ntah nape dia rase mcm tu walaupun DIA ORANG YG BERSALAHHH, so, then, suddenly waktu BM, budak tu dtg nak jumpa Athirah. tiba2 aku nampak musuh2 yg lain(budak iban) datang minta maaf kat Athirah. bwahahaha niceee, i like it :) well, things going well. mentang2 dh nak PMR and of course, SPM.

that day i went to MGS, my old skool when i was form1. heee, so hapee so speechless! i wanna go visit there again! i miss them sooo much! ); i'm glad they're ok, they were just finished Grad Nite tonight. such many pretty dresses and all, hmphhhh untung. hehee. i even made a friend with the auntie guard. member baikk chorrr. hahaha.

ya Allah... tolonglah bagi aku semangat utk belajar bersungguh2 dan rajinkanlah aku membaca buku, ya Allah... , hmmm.. lately kat skolah takde blajar sangat, kadang2 cikgu tk masuk. nak baca buku pun, errr tkde mood. lagi2 ngan keadaan situasi klas mcm tu. aku ngan Athirah pun, memang ler suka merayap ke sana sini. well, kadang2 nak cari cikgu, tk jumpa plak. nak gi tandas, nak gi PS(most of all times) sebab ada aircond, leh duk kat sofa~ sampai org ingat kita asyik merayap je. please do not misunderstand, klau budak lain memang iyelaa merayap. haha. well, tu pun sebab.. i don't really like my class' situation. mcm NERAKAA, skali dgn setan2 semua. hahaha. ade ke Angel? ade kot. mesti ade punye la. no worries. one thing i hate the most at school is the lovely 'kantin', urghh, suke sgt masak mihun & nasi goreng yg DAH BASI(?!) omaigawdd, nak termuntah tadi aku cubatry makan. urghh.. sabar jelaa. nak complain? boleh ke? haramm. tknak lah.. well, tk tau lagi. insyaAllah. biasanya kat sana aku makan kuey teow je x) teeheee. so yeah. i really hope i can study hard. please please oh pwetty pweasee ya Allah! (>_<)/ make me happy always~

"the reallyyyy first time i spitted water out of my mouth because of the words she said to him, shocked but well, it's pretty much true actually."

love,
xscape .

...

2011-09-26T23:57:00.001+08:00

ada masalah kesihatan...

feelin so flyy like a G6.

2011-09-22T10:56:00.005+08:00

the Roger Age already ended. the current is WhiteBeard Age also ended. now, what? geez, too much One Piece in the head. but i wish they don't have to knock it off already, just stay put in. lol

so, TRIAL sudaaa punn abiss. xcept for SENI! YOSHHH! GANBARE GANBARE! YOU CAN DO IT, AMELIAAAAA!

things getting reallyyy complicated here. maaflaaa, teman ni... bukannya dari family yg kaya (u__u); untunglaaa remaja yg sebaya ngan teman ni ada iPad, iPhone, BlackBerry, DSLR and so on laa. aku nak beli banyak banyak banyakkk baju kurung or whatever any baju, senang kata, SHOPPINGGG, pun tk boleh ah. no matter what it is, WE JUST HAVE TO STRUGGLE!

Olive Penderghast baca buku novel Scarlett Letter, dia sorang je yg baca buku dalam kelas.. yg lain tkde pun. so, i think ahh.. aku nak baca semuaaaa buku2 sastera aku ni sampai abis & faham. i mean, i've got to do something, right?

pagi tadi aku mimpi psl "banyakkkkknyerr baju kurung ♥" , itu yg best. skarang ni, parents aku busy psl tanah2 tok & opah kat tjg. tualang. nak claim balik apa yg hak kita. i would say, "BEHOLD! the power of Siak!" , more to.. "jgn main2, anak2 Ariffin ni.. garangg." , hahah. yeah, my uncles and aunts and all... my bro said are we gonna be rich? insyaAllah.. i hope so. i even made a promise with Athirah today! ^^; cadang nak sewa rumah~ cari kerja, cari duit banyak2, duduk bersama~ waaaaa those are more than just a 'words.'

so, yeahhh, semalam aku tgk Ouran High School Host Club DRAMAAAAAA !!! yes yes, live action. just like in the anime, mmg lawakkk xD rugi tk tgk, wajib tonton yaw! dh abis trial ni mcm da abis spm pulakk... masing2 ade yg tknak datang skolah, ade yg asyik nak tanye "sape dtg sek td?" and mcm2 laa soalan. toksah rasa takut sangattt, kalau tk, datang je skolah. da tau tk datang skolah, so, leave it all on, jgn rasa takut. aishh, tk faham aku. apapun, hari ni aku mmg tk pegi pun xD tapi esok, YOSHHH! ganbare ganbareeee! mudah2an dapat laa result yg bagus... average... mmm, good. great... super? doubt so. hahaha

assalamualaikum,
xscape .

updateeeee .

2011-09-10T19:14:00.003+08:00

apabila ku berada d skolah pd waktu yg pagi lagi cerah, Athirah pun datang kpd ku..
*smack!* *shake hands* Aku pun berkata, "amacam cuti raye, bro? best?", dia m'jawab, "cuti raye sudah abis, bro." , ahahahaa!

so, yeahhh, cuti raye mmg best gilee woohh! memang raye sakan, aku cakap. i would say, cuti raye tahun ni lebih baik b'banding ngan tahun lepas. heee. balik kampung family belah ayah je, kat batu gajah, then sitiawan, then taiping. hari esoknya ada majlis aidilfitri kaum kerabat siak indrapura kat tanjung tualang. yes yes, i'm from a royal family. belah atok punya atok punya atokkk. hahaha macam2. at first, aku ade fikir jugak, "aihh, nonsense jelaaa -_-" hahaha hit me please ♥ xD apapun, trial tiba2 datang kat aku and say, "study weiii!" OMAIGAWDDD, seminggu tlah pun berlepas ke angkasa. another week left, i think. malas nak tgk jadual, hahaha.

anyways, hari ni, petang tadi, aku ngan abang aku tengok Bleach Movie 4 - Jigoku-Hen , memang BESTT SIOTTT! (>O<)/ rugi tk tengokkk. terharu tgk the love between brother & sister. siblings love thingy, ya know. yeahhhh, faham2 jelaaa.

hapee rayaaa 8)

2011-09-02T01:02:00.000+08:00

things going well these last 3 days.. aaaa, hapee raya ♥ raya pertama, tk pegi mana2 pun. just, duduk rumah, tengok tv, thennnnnn, tiba2 ada budak2 datang beraye nak duit rayee. hoho. raya kedua pulak, pegi rumah maksu, ada laa jugak adik bradik belah mak datang. termasuk pak long & family dari shah alam(kalau tk silap).. pak long, as usual, suka buat lawak. gelak2. best jee. aaaa, yg bestnya, sepupu aku sorang ni ade DSLR (T^T) haishhh, jealousss sungguh ! however, at least, aku dapat jugak duit rayeeee~ heee, agak2 semua dlm rm10 je. huhuhu. tapi, tambah lagi duit aku, hehehehe *evil laughs* 8D hari ni pulak, dapat jumpa ngan family pak long, ade laa anak pempuan dia ngan suami dia, lagi sorang anak pempuan tu kahwin ngan anak mak ngah, ade 3 anak, tambah lagi kat perut dia yg dah 8 bulan daa. nak dekat daa, nak dekattt! yg agak tk best tadi, tk dapat nak concentrate tengok cite 8tv, Stormbreaker. hensem chorrr Alex Rider. fuhhh, HOT ♥ esok pulakk, ape plan? jeng je jengggg !! balik kampung kot, nak gi jenguk atok sedara and sepupu kesayangan kuuuu, mas ♥ hehehe. dah 2 hari da aku tido lambat, hmmm, ingat nak tengok jmovie kejap laa. Tenshi no Koi. gambar raya belum masuk lagi, huhuhu~ adios, assalamualaikum. have fun !

1st day of raya .

2011-08-30T20:29:00.005+08:00

was kinda... boring, as usual. anddd korang perasan tk?! aku baru sedar bila raya je, mesti kite rase ngantokkk xD heheh. well, thats what i've done during raya previous years. first day je, tidooo... rase ngantok. hmm, syukur Alhamdulillah aku takde laa penuh sangat puasa ni. tahun depan kene GANTI JUGAKK! (>O<)/ tapi, walaupun seharian duduk kat rumah je, ade jugak tetamu2 datang. i was like, soo freakin' panicked! hahaha, budak2 kecik yg datang. alaa, diorg pikir duit raye je gituu ._. those lovely children, that is, mak aku slalu tolong family diorg. rumah diorg dekat area depan rumah yg ade bukak gerai. anda boleh nampak laa kalau nak on the way ke rumah aku. aku kalau nampak laa budak2 kecik nakal gitu, aku mule lerr rase mcm, takut pun ade. hahaha! it's all begin when i went to Kuantan last year, ingat tak? ade sepupu aku ni, second last daughter, nakal sangat2! & suke gigit aku (T^T) aku nanges tau tk! eeeee, agak memalukan........ well, it's okay right. not all peeps know how to handle or berhadapan ngan budak2 kecik. normal case, yes yes. apapun, bosan jugak laa... tadak teman nak bermesej, except for Hazim. but still, too late, sebab skarang pun kredit tarak ada wo! XD HAHA! aaaaa, tapi, insyaAllah esok aku akan balik kampung di malim nawar. sabtu ni kat kampung lagi 1 tjg. tualang ada majlis yg berkaitan ngan keturunan family gitu laa. Siak, ke ape ke... Sri Indrapura, royal family something like that. more like a family reunion, mesti ramaiiii kannnn~ not really excited but agak takut... you know i do despites crowded (._.")~ uhh, gambar raya pulak... akan datang, don't worry morry. i wonder.... why. raya tahun ni mcm tk berapa best. maybe sebab, sebelum2 ni, ramai yg tlah menghadapi kesulitan or, kesusahan hidup, like, heartbroken or something2 like that... so, bila raya pun, well, for example laa kan, tk dapat beraya ngan kekasih sebab dh jadi ex da. hahaha! yeahh, something like that. just, pikir laa sendiri. included family crisis too. i mean like, DUDEE... takkan laa alasan sebab trial SPM lepas raya ni? pffft, gimme a break (=o=) ambik buku then baca je, force yourself lovely ones! hahaha mcm laa boleh kan, aku sendiri tk boleh.. so, get a life! kadang2 aku rase..... mcm, something wrong somewhere. hmm, whatever laa..

kepada all readers ku yg setiaaa (yeke setia? haha) ,
kalau boleh, please.. do... comment or just, SHOW YOURSELF! (o_O")
RAYA OH YEAHHHHH ! ♥

salam lebaran ~

2011-08-29T21:58:00.003+08:00

esok rayeeeeeeee ♥ yayyy ;))
tapi rasa mcm pelik pun adee (._.) mcm tk excited sangattt, plus, i had a tough day with my mom. rasa bersalah sangatt, spatutnya skarang ni pun aku patut tolong dia masak2 kat dapur. haishhhh dasar anak durhaka & pemalas. but like i said, maybe sebab aku dh besarrr kot. dewasa la sangat ye. hahaha. apapun, tahun ni aku bertekad utk kumpul duit rayaaa 8D heheheh. itu yg agak penting, lagi2 lepas trial SPM ni, nak kluar hangout ngan kawan2. mamposss laa kan kalau tadak duit, mahunyerr kene hutang (>O<)/ tapi Alhamdulillah, dh selesai hutang tersebut. hahaha. agak jealous jugak laa bila kawan2 or sesapa jelaa pegi shopping raya, dgn bajet duit sampai rm10k. fuhhh aku tk penah sekaya gitu weiii. kasut raya pun rm39 je. hmmm, ok laa, gua out dulu. mau tolong mak!! MAKKKKKKKK!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALLL~

&then, anger came.

2011-08-28T23:40:00.001+08:00

"self-hate.."

i feel so frustrated and desperately feel like wanting to kill myself. i feel useless. i'm not good, i'm not perfect, and i'm not loved by anyone. well, the world, that is. i never get the chance to be loved or to love. i am, the so-called, 'cacat' :(

& sooo, it's been a little while. raya pun dah nak, hampir sgt2 dekatt. stakat ni, 2 baju raya. Alhamdulillah syukur ya Allah ya Tuhanku !!!!! (>O<")/

pelik jugak laa, nape tahun ni ramai sgt beli baju raya colour purple? D:

thankss sooooo muchy much to mak and kak long sebab sudi belanjaaa shopping raya ni. ihihihi~ tadi pulak singgah kat yik foong, ate, abg kate nak blanje kasut raye. so, we went there.. mak aku mmg tk sukeee sangat tempat mcm tu. low-class, low-standard, full of indonesians! no offense but, betoi kate abg aku, kalau nak pegi indon, pegi yik foong je xD hahaha. seriously, aku mmg tk tau pape! mak aku risau sgt2 tadi, aku jalan ikut abg dari blakang then mak aku pulak dari blakang aku. mak cakap ade sorang laki ni ikut aku dari blakang, eeekkk scary o_o; then bila aku pegi dekat abg, laki tu trus blah tempat lain. saveeeee ;_; ngee seram2. kot nape gitu pulak? aku dressup sexy sgt ke? haihh mentang2 freehair, pakai baju hitam mcm biase je kot. hmm... musykil. bab kes-culik-rogol-laki-gatal-jahat ni memang aku tk suka and takut skalii!

&soo, sejak 2 3 6 7 menjak nii, byk sangattt masalah dlm otak fikiran minda aku ni. maybe sebab, terlalu byk berfikir kot. and of course NOOO, aku tk berangan punnn T__T tapi, kadang2... angan tu laa yg slalu dtg kat aku. berkat aku memakai doa si awang lebih tu laa ♥ Alhamdulillah.. hehe. hmm, tgh blurr jap ni. trial SPM dah nak dekat da.. lagi seminggu je kot. aihh pening2, aku belum lagi 100% ready. nak sentuh buku pun... haishhh, seriously, my soul is rotten. tapi nasib baik, aku still dalam keadaan waras. WARAS, tau tk?! O_o" kadang2 aku rasa... aku dh tk boleh happy2 da.. if sesape tgk aku happy2 ke senyum2, itu semua... dah jadi fake da skarang (._.) haihhh, i'm sooo emo right now. ANYWAYSSS...

i would ♥ to say, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin to you all! Maafkan sy dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki. Maaf ats segala2nya. Moga2 kita d berkati rezeki & senantiasa d lindungi oleh Allah subhanallahu wa taala.

♥

amelia

KOF 2000, episode 6. fighting game. for life.

2011-08-21T23:43:00.001+08:00

Zero: You lose.
Edit: What do you mean?
Zero: When I press this button, all your energy goes to the cannon.
Edit: Not if I can help it!
Zero: Even with my death, you haven't got a prayer. Why do you think
I handed over the clone to Heidern?! Farewell, you fools!
Disintegrate in the light of a brand new world!

(Zero presses the button, but the generator chokes)

Zero: Curses! What is this...?!

(the generator overloads and explodes)

Zero: GOOOAAAAAH...!! ...a malfunction?! What's going on!?

VARIABLE SCENE 1 or 2(based on the vid, if you're lazy to read..)

(Kyo leans over a dying Zero)

Kyo: Consider that payback for the way you used us!
Zero: 'Used' you? The strength of your Mushiki move... was used to
power the Zero Cannon. It's the ultimate compliment!
Kyo: In your sick fantasies! You conceited freak!...
Zero: Chill out. I'll soon be dead. Instead of me, think... of the
one who awaits you...

(Iori appears over Kyo's shoulder)

Kyo: .....Someone awaits me?

(Iori takes a stance)

Iori: Enough prattle....

(Kyo tightens his gloves)

Kyo: Don't you think? Here's 'someone'!

(a "memory portrait" of Yuki flashes by)

Kyo: Let's rumble, dude!...

*In case you're unaware of this, Yuki was supposed to have died in the
'97 Sacred Force Team ending. Orochi kidnapped and used her as a
kushinada sacrifice. What she says in that ending when she appears
as a surreal sketch is "Materu kara ne, Kyo" (I'll be waiting for you,
Kyo)... indicating that she is in fact "gone". At that point Kyo
becomes enraged and jumps in to help Iori kill off Orochi. Here in this
ending, Iori is taunting Kyo by reminding him that she's gone.

this is how i get so ..

2011-08-15T16:32:00.000+08:00

~~upset~~ rendah diri :)
you know, there's actually this bunch of iban girls at my school. the super duper go go juniors. they were Athirah's enemies. it's really a terrible mistake when peeps telling bad stuff about me. i do get mad and stuff, but, terpaksa redha jelaa. people always say "bukan semua manusia perfect", and i think, i would say sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Penyayang lagi Maha Berkuasa. Allah, to me, is powerful. Allah is SPECIAL! and Allah creates many things, human included. So, for example, your lover is a very special one to you and your lover just made this special lovely thing for you. You think, this lovely thing is special because it was made by your special love. Get the point? so, the conclusion is, everyone, i mean, all people are special because they created by Allah. & Allah is special. what i usually heard from the bad peeps was, i got this 'gigi jonggang' *screams*. Athirah always said to me, "ang mane ade gigi jonggang. jgn tacingg, amy. plss don't be like that. " i admit, i do have this gigi jonggang thingy. well, not really 'jonggang', just big, ok? haha. cerita d sebalik gigi depan aku ni, time aku kecik2 dulu aku selalu minum milo yang TERamat manis and selalu makan benda2 manis. and at that time, aku slalu ade gigi goyang sampai kene cabut sana sini. gigi aku sebenarnya da rosak daa :( i even got this 1 vampire-sharp-like tooth. da laa aku slalu banyak gelak, memang spoiler la kan kalau tibe2 ade mamat2 hensem usha. hahaha! another thing is, yes, belakang badan aku ni agak bongkok. they said aku ni 'cacat', funny right? haha. tu pun sebab aku mula blajar guna komputer ni sejak dari kecik lagi, sangat2 aktif bila time darjah 6. my soul age is 12, really. so, bila da asyik menghadap komputer, faham2 jelaa kan. haha. hmm, bawah dagu aku ni kecik.. sometimes, jealous jugak laa tengok pempuan2 lain yg sungguhhhhh cantik ♥ yea, aku ni kurus yang teramat! tapi kalau tengok my naked body, kan, badan aku ni biase je. takde la sampai badan tulang je. a normal small thin body. at least makan banyak2 pun tk payah la nak risau kalau badan da jadi mcm bob kuman. janji perut happy~ sejak 2 3 5 menjak ni, aku slalu berdoa agar bagi laaa berisi sikit badan aku ni ;) huehueheee. deep in my heart, i love myself.. because i love Allah.

passion & addict.

2011-08-15T15:11:00.000+08:00

i just ♥ hana tajima , memang cantekkkk sangat2 =3=

600th entry of posting!

2011-08-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

yayy for me :DD hahaha. hari ni mcm biasa.. puasa, perut kosong, lembik, trus tido~ yeahh... aaa......... not much to say laa. *speechless*

chiao! ♥

adventures .

2011-08-10T22:43:00.001+08:00

"Such a marvel is proof not only that the gods exist,
but that they love, and that profoundly.”
— explorer and mapmaker, Orrick Ballard

memang best gile! baru je dapat tau yg FFXIV(14) da released bulan sept taun lepas. teringin sangatttt nak main! lagi2 released dlm PC. WUUT!^^ heee, anyways, o yaa, aku dh kembali online... guna si benda alah ni haa, instanet. lebih kurang mcm broadband. alahai maklum laa, nak raye ni pun tk tau laa ade duit ke tak.. apatah lagi nak bayar si internet kat rumah ni. hmm, sabar jelaa. things getting well i guess these days.. school? arghh, sayang tapi benci tapi sayang :) yeah. macam2 masalah yea.. PELBAGAI sangat. haha. aku skarang, tkde daa angan2. don't worry morry. it's hard to believe love right now. i mean, just because of that 1 PERSON? omaigawddd, aku dh rosak hati da @_@ takpe la.. it's ok, i don't mind. janji perut happy bila makan banyak :) ok setakat ni jelaa, penat ni. assalamualaikum ~

too much stories, dude!

2011-08-10T22:28:00.000+08:00

from June-August, with ♥

Being in a one-sided love is absolutely terrifying. I can't believe it but i guess, i've been in a one-sided love after all this time in the previous year, with those months. thinking of as it is now, really makes me pisses off. just because of a 1 guy, i feel like, as if, i can't fall in love anymore. maybe i shouldn't said that but, i have a weak heart, a weak sensitive heart, which i really do need someone to heal it up for me. i definitely despite playboys nor idiot boys. come to think of it, it's all my fault and i really should stop thinking about it. i'm pretty sure that, no one.. and nobody will understand me. and thats for sure.

love, that is.
never freakin stop with the L.O.V.E. tsk, why do i keep thinking about that? well i'm SORRY, just because i actually realised i had been fell in love with someone in the previous years before i actually had 'love' and even dated 'one'. but that 'love' and 'one', i must forget about it. it's useless. the love im saying about was, im the one who had been in a one-sided love, in 3 YEARS, for real. maybe it's regretful and i really shouldn't say this but, i think, i'll never fall in love again... ever.

The power of Azure Grimoire. Pain shoots through my mind and heart, just damn it, i wish they'd knock it off already. what's the matter is, i dont like this one bit. i guess, they're just.. had been in a difficult situations and got beat up in awhile and then, they do it back to someone of what they just got into. it's more like a, revenge, literally. but i prefer it's called a playboy type. geez, i mean, what a drag, for someone to be so rebellious. why not, just, you got dumped out and stay there, dont move, dont hold a revenge or something. because, of that kind of stuff, people starting to follow em, step by step. and keep spreading towards all people. im actually saying about, "jangan balas balik atas apa yg orang buat. jangan balas dendam.", it's pretty easy to say. stomachache and blood pain, those diseases are too easy to get in through the mind and heart.

my best companion in the real life, real fantasy, and mostly, at school. seriously, i think i can't live without Athirah. she's the only one who can understand my feelings and all. well she always give me an extreme right advices and, she's right all the time and even sometimes she annoys me, very irritating. feel like hitting her in the head and 'get a life, will ya?' or, something like that. but stiil, i'm her only best friend in life. to the other mates, i'm sorry and yeah yeah, i do love u all. it just that, i don't have the 'love' to love love. u know what i mean? haha

it's been a month.. or is it months? i rarely online these days, too rare. and it's pretty damn hard for me to update some stuff in the school library blog just because i don't have my own camera and a pendrive, which, i usually borrow my friend's. to get my very own DSLR is my only hope. somehow, it almost difficult. most of it, i'll try to think about it. i keep struggling and struggling with my school artworks. they're loads, loads and loads to finish em off. easy and hard. sometimes i just need to defeat my 'lazy' attitude to get ahead of it. but i really need to get focus on my studies. for the monthly test...

'pecutan', she said.
things getting exciting and kinda abit complicated. well, i do enjoy celebrating this festive month. i usually get thirsty than hungry, especially for any juices. mm yummy :) well, lepas raya, trus nak SPM trial. omaigawddd TRIAL! forget that but SPM! im not really that 100% ready, could say, 50%. damnit, im tooooo lazy to study. seriously, it's been DAYS i haven't study. anything. so.. critical indeed. for me, that is. the guy i admired, he's so strong and brave! i feel happy everytime i text msg him. sometimes,i listen to my outer heart so much til i nearly ignore my inner heart. such pity. well it might be easy for the ex to forget about me. it's like, "heyy been a long time haven't to talk to ya". i thought i might just wanted to wish him a birthday this coming month. urgh, no way.. i can't. im not strong enough to handle this feeling anymore. but ya see, the truth is, those old memories fade. besides, we only dated for a short time. tk sampai setahun pun. hmm let's see, 3 months? or 2 and a half? and i did my veryy best to forget everything after we broke up. and yeah, like i said, those damned memories, fade. 'ex heart'. wow. anyways, happy ramadhan al mubarak~

JMovies fever =)

2011-05-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

diving to save a camera from a fall down a flight of stairs, high school junior Naomi Sukuse wakes with no memory of the last four years. Naomi must remember who she was and figure out who she wants to be in this story of love and second chances =) pasal cerita nii, aku copy paste je dia punya summary plot sebab baru tengok sikit2 je. ingat nak tengok nanti time cuti skolah yg akan datang niii (: heee. and of course, plakon yg TERhebat & TERcomel horikita maki ♥ ngan matsuyama kenichi yg agak awww comel jugak la tp tk minat sangat. hahah

sebelum ni, bulan2 lepas kot aku da tengok cerita Swings Girls !

aaaa memang best sangat2! lakonan juri ueno memang cute :) termasuk movie turtles swim faster than expected ngan nodame cantabile. aaaa swing girls pasal kawan2 satu class ngan budak laki. diorang berusaha nak main dalam big band jazz sebab terlalu minat sangat, bila da skali main tu trus luass minatnya. last2, diorang da masuk dalam competition nii, confirm menang laa sebab semua org terhibur ngan lagu moonlight serenade, mexican flyer & sing sing sing (; however, it's a MUST watch movie !!

so yeahhh, tu jelaa yg nak d postkan malam ni.
GazettE's VORTEX IS ♥

byee =)

last exam end ?

2011-05-24T14:50:00.003+08:00

aku ingat hari ni laa exam last tp tiba2 je, ada.... SIVIK? MAIGAWDD, THIS IS SO FREAKING .... AMUSING ! ahahaha ! iaitu, pd hari khamis inii, insyaallah. rasa agak pelik tp happyyy sangatt dapat adjust kerusi ni tadii. runsing sangat2 tauu , heee (; apapun, exam seni tadi agak memuaskan ! walaupun masa hampirr tidak cukup, kena practice betul2 next time. soalan yg aku pilih tadi soalan melukis alat2 solek ♥ so, malam tadi aku google laa gambar2 makeup set sebab nak tau macam mana position, angle, space, colors, etc etc .....

yg ni agak simple but cute :)

awww yg ni lagi laa the BEST of the BEST ♥

hmm, tk tau laa macam mana aku lukis tadii (._.) but i tried my best .. hmmmphh ;(

day for me ?

2011-05-20T22:58:00.002+08:00

ahaaaa, hari ni jumaat ada skolah tp aku tk pegi punnn .. sebab tade paper, aku da banyak kali daa call Athirah nak bgtau dia yg aku tk dtg tp tak jawab2 callnya. dengar story dia nanges gile2 sampai tertido. ahahaha budak nii, kalau dia tk datang skolah, aku orait je keseorangan~ hmm, apapun, hari ni FIRST time aku sakit gastrik. dari pagi tadii time aku mandi. sakit gila2! ingatkan masalah pmpuan, tapi takk ... yaaa sakit yg teramat! sangat manis d saat aku dimanja2 oleh mak ♥ hahaha, mak pesan suruh minum susu je. tapi kann, tadi aku pegi kedai 7E jap, beli GAVISCON! waaa agak sedap jugak, kot. tp perut still sakit :( aku takut laa psl 'perut berlubang' eee (x_x) then, ingatkan nak pegi stadium ada Kejohanan Balapan Dan Padang MSSM Ipoh 2011.. patutnya pukul 8 tadi ada acara prtandingan tanglung tuu tp tk sempatt, aku ngn mak aku lambat ;( cari parking pun hapahh tadak! traffic jam dari petang tadi. last2 tak jadi laa. mmg sah gini laa, walaupun rumah dekat jeaa ngan stadium, & bila stadium ada apa2 event besar ke apa, aku ngan family tkkan pegi punyeee. ntah ngape.

hmm, aku tk penah dapat jadi happy. walau happy gelak2 macam mana pun, tetap sedih jugak. aku rindu si dia. aku sedih bila kalau2 ada org sukakan dia or whatever laa kan, faham2 jelaa. tp.. sabar jelaa.. org slalu cakap "udah2 laa tu", its really impossible for me.. because he was like... my first love, first boyfriend, first date.
le blehh.

mudah2an aku dapat sembuh dr sakit perut gila2 niii, seksa ya teramat! there's a word saying--just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry. Just because she comes off strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong. :|

these days, aku asyik tensionnn je. well, haha hari ni je. mcm2 masalah :( mood nak text messaging pun tade laa sgt, jarang sgt2 mesej ngan sape2. kat FB chat ade je yg bagi salam, then senyap trus.

semalam aku ada tengok movie Odd Girl Out , mmg wajib tonton wuu! citenyer lebih kurang mcm jdrama LIFE je, pasal high school, teenagers, bullies, popularity. blahhh, aku da hadapi semuanya wktu form1 kat MGS dulu. hahah, especially about jealousy. mmg menakutkan indeed.

kadang2 aku rase nak bunuh diri je :|
agak2 org kesah ke tak eh?

i mean, of courseee bunuh diri tu 1 dosa yg besarrr skali. no no, aku takkan buat keje gila. no worries. haha. kadang2 aku rase aku nii , mcm, brengsek+bengong+teruk je *mmg yee pun (._.) , OKKKK~ thats all for tonight, assalamualaikum .

day for him or her .

2011-05-19T19:04:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, akhirnya abes jugakkk exam2 bagi subjek2 teras, kini tinggal subjek2 elektif je iaitu, sastera & seni ♥ yeahhhh :D apapun, aku rase... perasaan 'rindu+cinta' semakin pudar. i mean like, buat pe nak mengharapkan something yg luar drp biasa lagi ? useless laa kan. yg penting, impian pd masa depan.. harus dicapai !

unbelievable !

2011-05-18T16:04:00.003+08:00

ahahaha tiba2 je pagi tadi aku dapat surat ni.. parents aku pun terkejut ! "waaaa meya nak masuk kolej daa!" hahaha XD memang dahsyat. tp actually, aku ingat lagi time skolah aku ade keluar spm result tu. skali ngan pameran2 bende hal2 jom masuk U and whatsoever di sana. aku ngan kawan2 pun just daftar jelaa nama2 kat borang hal berbagai. then, ada dapat beg+brochures percuma ! so, yaa... parents aku mcm hapee je bila aku ada surat drpd U ni. yelaa, abg2 n kakak2 semua dapat kolej je.. at least, they're now in a good career. apapun, surat ni boleh disimpan, kan? utk kepentingan masa depan. haha. SPM pun blum abess, haishh =="

thoughts for tonight .

2011-05-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

aku tade ape2 nak d katakan except... aku rase teramat laaaa malass pd hari ni. hahah asyik2 makan nugget, baring, tengok tv.. hmm, (=_=) bye, assalamualaikum.

selamat hari guru ...

2011-05-15T20:14:00.000+08:00

kepada semua warga guru2 SMKRC & skolah2 lain ♥ :)

kindness .

2011-05-14T15:43:00.002+08:00

lagi 2 minggu je nak abes midyear exam, weeeeeeeee~♥ sejak menjak ni family aku ade problem. well, u know laa, semuanya pasal my dad. hmmm, tk tau apa nak kata. it's more like a , "i'm going to be in my mother's custody." dalam pelbagai hal2 seumur hidup ni, my dad slalu buat mak nanges. mak aku slalu cakap yg dia ni kuat, jangan risau, mak kuat.. tapi, sbenarnya tidak. frankly speaking, my dad is the most worst human in the world. aku ada berjuta2 alasan/situasi utk tidak suka dia, so tkpayah laa nak cakap "tk baik gituu nohh.." , aku tade laa nk lawan apa2 ngn dia tu, just diam je. aku bukan rapat sgt ngn dia. dalam rumah ni, aku lonely je. kadang2 pegi kat mak, kesian mak tade teman bersembang. faham2 jela kan, aku faham perasaan org2 tua ni. tapi entah laa, aku ni mmg jenis suka sembang2 ngn org2 tua. rase best pun ada :D hehe. yelaa, diorg lagi byk bpengalaman dari kita. so... yaaa .. kesian mak semalam, aku betul2 rase terharuu kot, terkejut pun ade! patutnye aku pegi skolah utk duty ps, tp mak tk bagi .. tpakse laa ikut cakap mak, aku pnah slalu je tk dengar cakap mak. then, lbh kurang pukul 2 lebih laa, tiba2 mak masuk bilik, ngn mukanya mnanges trus peluk aku. mak aku just taknak khilangan anak2 dia je, dia tknak aku pegi jauh dari dia. mak tension ngn hal suami, hal kakak yg byk menipu n disappointed her so much. kakak da lame tk balik rumah sejak aku pegi kuantan bulan 12 taun lepas lagi. tiba2 dapat dgr yg dia da .... ade suami. honestly, i'm actually lack of sisters' love. nevertheless, kakak yg penah aku rapat gile2 dulu tu skarang da jauh gile2 dari aku. sejak dia ade boyfren mase aku darjah 6 lagi . yg ade ngan aku is kak long je. heee ......................... (._.") macam2 dilema . mudah2an Allah sentiasa melindungi family aku ni ..

pray for rain .

2011-05-12T19:02:00.000+08:00

hari ni exam sejarah memang susah gileeee !!!!!! aaaa (@_@) cikgu mesti kecewa punye.. haishh. silly me sebab tk focus sepenuhnya kat sejarah ni. ingat lagi bak kata abang K.U 2009, orang IT ni mesti tak oke sangat dlm sejarah. umm tapi aku alright je (._.") hahaaaaaaa apapun, time exam ni laa dimana otak kita banyak berfikir dan hampir nak berasap, cuba untuk jangan meletop ye. penat kott. tadi hujan kan? tapi aku still rase panas. semalam aku ade sembang2 ngan mak... tension kot pasal family semua, perangai ayah.. kak long, abang.. kakak. hmm, so i was like, aku nak jaga mak aku. nak jaga mak sampai laa masanya aku da kahwin. maybe? haha tapi yeah, aku nak jaga mak.. tahun depan confirm aku nak masuk form 6, aku taknak pegi tempat luar jauh lagi.. taknak masuk asrama lagi. nanti sape nak jaga mak, sape nak urut mak tiap2 malam.. kesian mak.. hmm, esok pula exam science! YOSH! i'll do my best!

GUM-bira !

2011-05-11T20:32:00.002+08:00

hari ni... agak membosankan, tade koje nak lepak2 dalam kelas yg HANYA 7 plajar hadir. Athirah pulak sembang keling nak datang tapi tk muncul2. so, pagi2 buta dalam klas, aku tido laa kejap. sejak 2 3 4 hari 2 minggu menjak ni, aku tk cukup tido sebab tido lambat dengan tade sebab.

Alhamdulillah, aku rase happy sangat2! aku da berkenalan ngn sorang amoi cantek nii kat skolah, dia form lower 6. time tu aku betul2 bosan so aku saje2 laa nak jumpa Devaghi yg slalu lepak ngan makcik2 dia tu dekat dewan aspura. soo, aku nampak budak2 lower 6 tengah main2 kat padang. tapi, amoi cantek tu tengah duduk sorang2 kat kerusi meja batu tu. so, i thought.. aku pun sembang2 la ngan dia. ternyata dia tk main sebab ada hal masalah perempuan. macam2 hal sampai dia cakap "nasib baik awk ada, kalau tak, tak tahu lah macam mana sy skarang.." and bila tiba time rehat, aku betul2 tk sangka dia nak belanja aku makan. alaa, rm1 je utk kuey teow. haha but yeah, aku tengok dia macam tade kawan2 lagi. orangnya agak pemaluu(pemalu dari aku~ haha), slow voice. aku ingat nak cakap2 laa kat dia supaya focus study utk STPM nanti. bak kata kak S, kena banyak membaca.. aku happy dapat kenal ngan dia :)

ehhh, sorry to say, but Janice slalu cakap yg aku ni sukaaaaa je kawan ngan budak form 6, senior nak tapi junior taknak pulak. aiyakk! bagi aku, budak2 form6 ni macam .. matang, u know(matang ke?)! well at least lagiii baik drpd budak2 form 5 skarang. haishh macam budak2 je, I MEAN.. seriously, Athirah pun cakap macam budak2 yg perangai mengALAHkan budak2 tadika. aku start kawan ngn budak2 form6 pun sejak aku form 3 lagii, aaaaa yeah .. abang K.U 2009. oke laa yg dia sedang menikmati dan menghadapi pelbagai cabaran kat UTAR skarang. i bet he's getting busy day by day. hubungan kitorang semakin jarakk jauh sikit, kinda difficult bila pernah masa dulu dia betul2 buat aku marah (==") i mean, what the hell laa kan. life goes on.

bagi aku, tahun 2009 adalah tahun yg paling terbaikkk! second best, 2010. haha. as u see, me myself am reallyyy trying to be more mature as possible. no no, aku taknak jadi tinggi .. aku nak jadi pendek, budak kecik. ahahaha. YES YES, cikgu R cakap FOCUS ON STUDY! focus focus focus focus! don't imagine something that i believe it wouldn't happen. angan2 semata2.

so, good luck to me utk esok exam sejarah! ^^ ~♥

agony , lust .

2011-05-10T21:46:00.003+08:00

sejak sebulan ni, Malaysia da semakin panasss ! global warming ka? aiyaakkk DX malam tadi tido pun tk lena, kejap pusing kiri, pusing kanan. hahah. walaupun ada kipas, but still, sweats everywhere! but i don't mind, asalkan aku masih hidup lagi. hoho! hari ni kat skolah, exam B.I (^^v) bole tahan laaaaaaaaa~ mudah2an dapat result yg bagus. semangat hari ni tade la sepenuhnya sebab, haihhh (T~T) ya Allah, tolonglah....... seriously, otak terganggu. kalau la ada sape2 yg boleh tolong aku. like, TOLONGLAHH kan. susah laa wei. baru sekejap tadi aku baca mesej lama aku ngan si dia kat FB, uwaaaa so nostalgic! rase nak nanges je wei.... hati ni sakit sangat2, nak buat macam mana? D; boleh betul2 jadi GILA kalau asyik mcm ni je, SABO jelaaa~ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! oke2, focus to study. yes yes, focus focus. slow slow. i'm ok by myself without him... maybe. apapun, aku baru je download Gazette Tour 10 Nameless Liberty Six Bullets !
memang best sangat2, eheee ♥ enjoy~

deeper .

2011-05-09T14:53:00.005+08:00

hari ni... hari isnin.. 9hb 5 2011.. exam B.M, alhamdulillah oke je . errr.. tade mood nak tulis tp rase nak tulis je.. hahaha. MOOD: sakit perut (x_x) , baru je lepas makan tadi.. AYAM GORENG ♥ tadi kat skolah, hari pendaftaran form lower 6. ramai jugakkk.. tp, aku doubt nanti mesti tibe2 sikit je lower 6 ni, i mean, bila diorg upper 6 taun depan. who knows laa kan. aku pun cadang nak sambung form 6 sebab yeahh, like i said before, aku belum bersedia nak ke U. lagi2, aku sayang sangat kat raja chulan ni. too much memories. yg aku tengah pening kepalaa ni, macam2 hal berlaku ngan si dia.. haishh. aku langsung tk kacau dia pun.. nak suruh sape2 mesej dia pun tadak! kalau aku sendiri nak mesej dia pun, aku takkan.. sebab buat apa? bukan nak kate apa2pun. lain laa kalau dia sendiri yg contact aku, c'mon laa .. be gentleman laa woi. haihh macam2 hal. bila ingat balik kenangan dlu, betul2 rase nak nanges je........ hmm!! yg penting, yelaa aku maleh nak ganggu dia.. AND takkan ganggu dia pun. yelaaaa kang dia TENSION KAN? grrr , (==") aaa forget bout it, lebih baik aku focus study & FB, hahah. YOSHHH !!! let's headbang together, enjoy this song ♥ warning kpd ibu2 mengandung, warga tua & warga org sakit, sila jgn tengok video ni kerana video ni adalah LAGU VISUAL-KEI ROCKKK ! >< reita-kun kakkoii ne~

LYRICS: click here

hapee mother's day :)

2011-05-08T01:45:00.005+08:00

takde laa suprising sangat bila da 1 whole FB sambut hari ibu nii. ade yg wish hari ibu, happy mother's day, sampai ily ♥ mak, i ♥ you mom ! aku pulakk, maleh laa nak post wall hapee hari ibu awal2 kat FB tu, tunggu matahari terbit laa nanti. hehe. apapun, baru tadii aku tlah menghadiahkan HADIAH JASA BESAR kat mak aku, which is ... (DON'T LAUGH!) cabut bulu ketiak dia.. hehe (^_^)v peacee~ yup, time aku tgh cabut bulu ketiak mak, tibe2 aku tringat (aah! mother's day..) "makk, happy mother's day.. ni laa hadiah cabut bulu ketiak service!" hahahaha... oke, right? tk salah nak tolong mak buat keje2 macam tu. anak2 skarang, biasa ler.. lain drpd anak2 dulu yg teramat sangat2 menghormati mak bapak. as for me, anything for you, my dear mom~♥ ;) hehe.

ada serba-sedikit nasihat utk korang semua, jangan lawan cakap mak .. kalau mak potpet-potpet pun, diam je... AND ikut cakap mak, jangan nak membantah pulakkk. ANDD... always learn to say sorry. bagi aku, tu laa yg terbaik. haha.

pasal mak aku ni... frankly speaking, dia mmg kuat agama wlaupun dia tk pakai tudung tapi pakai selendang. katanya, tk selesa .. leher dia sensitif sikit, cepat gatal2 or merah2 gitu laa, or sakit kepala. mak aku paling byk berkorban utk family, especially anak2. settle masalah semua, cari duit, & sebagainya. seriously, she's the best . of course laa bagi korang semua, mak korang laa yg the Best. so thats why laa, mothers are the best !

dlm blog ni, tahun 2009 je yg aku post psl mother's day. hahaha click here .too bad, mak aku takde duit nak celebrate.. simpan duit utk car petrol je. tunggu abg aku dpat gaji yg tak dapat2 lagi. aku ngan kak long ingat nak ajak makan2 kat pizzahut. sebab pizzahut kan, kalau tk silap, kelmarin time duty ps aku ngan hanisah ade tengok2 kat paper ade promotion mother's day pizza, shape dia HEART weii !!! cute sangat2 ! tapi, apa kan daya.... makan nugget jelaa kat rumah. ahahaha! OHH YEAH, yg paling penting dalam menyambut hari ibu ni ialah, doakan yg terbaik utk ibu.. dan sedekahkan al-fatihah. mudah2an mak panjang umur, tabah semangat, dan cantik sentiasa ~ hehe.. aku harap.. aku dapat menghadiahkan keputusan SPM yg terbaik kpd mak aku...
sekian, assalamualaikum .

it was on 12/9/2010 .

2011-05-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

click here to view flashback! & here

ahahaaa, at lastt i found this pic :) very cool indeed. tapi, yalaa.. tk ckup besar sgt. biasa la kan, gambar yg kite tangkap mmg besar tp bila d uploadkan d FB, trus jadi kecik.. or in a suitable size laa . anyway, thanks to my cousin, Firdaus Md Amin :)

tenang .

2011-05-05T20:53:00.000+08:00

aaaa, sudah sekian lamanyaaaa~
how are you ladies & ghosts doing today ?
hope everything is ok..
aku? ok kott.. haha sejak 2 3 4 5 6 hari ni.. banyak masalah timbul, ya.. aku banyak bersalah. aku tak pernah lari drpd kesesalan dlm hidup ni. kadang2 aku takde masalah tapi masalah seseorang tu, tlah menjadi sebahagian... ehh, macam mana nak kate, "masalah aku masalah ko jugak dan masalah ko masalah aku jugak.", chyeahhh like that ! so... preparation aku stakat nii, blum hundred percent % ready utk mid year exams, esok bermula laa exam maths. mudah2an dapat laa aku menjawabnya.. while that, aku da obsessed ngan cartoon KAT-TUN ! mmg best sangat2! banyak gile eps... nanti da abes tengok semua, nak tengok nobuta wo produce pulakk.. ade kame ♥ dalam cite tu (*O*)/ so.. stakat ni jelaa... good luck for everything in life and stay cool always . assalamualaikum ..

random facts about me being a ..

2011-05-01T21:43:00.004+08:00

Geek .

its not really hard but it depends on our personality and interest. but first, sebenarnya.. mata aku ni tk berape ok sangat. agak blurr.. tengok org dari jauh2 pun tk jelas, mahupun dekat.. tapi dekat tu oke laa lagi.. haha. mase aku form 2 laa aku mule pakai cermin mata.. then, start form 3 tu aku da jarang2 pakai cermin mata tu, so.. bila pakai balik lepas bberapa hari, mata da sakit da.. errr... mane ade duit nak beli baru ke ape. hahaaaaa.. yeah, puncanya aku asyik mengadap PC screen.

tau tk pe tu PC? personal computer. yeshhh, PC. dari kecik lagi kot aku start tau bende pasal IT nii.. bukan nak bangga, seriously NO! hahaha! tapi, rsenye dari umur 5/6 tahun kot. mule2 tu.. main game Megaman X4. memang bestt gilee! waaa nostalgic nostalgic!

ehhh.. dari umur 8-11 dgn abang aku yg memang terer IT.. banyak2 bende gadget&tech. nak repair pc pun memang terer jugak laa.. ape2hal masalah, tanye je dia. kalau bole, pasal pc kat pusat sumber skolah tu pun aku ingat nak mintak tolong abg aku tu. ahahah XD (tapi skarang tk rapat sangat da.... yela, married man laa kata kan..) so, sementara tu aku tau laa sikit2.. tk tau sangat CARAnya nak repair or ape2 systems tu tapi insyaallah kalau tengok2, bole laa kot. haha.

thennn, umur 12 mule laa aku join MySpace.com. taun ni bulan 1 kot baru da account deleted. malasss sebab banyak sgt bende berubah da ikut mcm FB da, nak hack account org pun tak bole. ahahaha! pada masa yg sama, time tu aku mule tau bende2 pasal chatroom! penah jadi moderator kat 1 chatroom ni haa.. sempoii, memang best dapat berhubung ngn international people! even now, u know! it's totally awesome. heheh :P at the same time, aku mmg tau bab2 HTML coding.. memang senang sgt2 :) heee . same goes with photoshop.. aku penah buat graphic design, edit photos.. bole buat DIV layout utk myspace. its pretty hard.. tapi da jarang sangat2 guna photoshop, skarang org da famous ngan photoscape da. senang gitu saja~

hmmm, let's see.. aku tk ingat sangat bila aku join FB? taun lepas ke? atau.. setahun lepas? time tu.. aku join.. then, sekejap je addicted sebab lepas tu aku da tade internet da.. then, aku online2 guna henfon. henfon aku dulu sony ericsson.. errr, ape ntah. online take charge credit wohhh! online2 pun kene cepat2 typing semua sebab kang abes kredit diambek. haha. ahhh yeahhh, time tu la.. err.. urghhh (=o=") aku kenal si dia... betul la kot, taun lepas aku start join FB. sampai skarang da addicted sungguh!

aaah tapi pasal blog ni pulak, aku paling sayanggg blog ni! hahaha kalau tengok archieves semua, start dr 2008.. yup, aku mule join blog ni mase aku form 2. time tu blog yg paling famous ialah xanga ngan livejournal. aku penah join dua2 tu tapi tk berapa addicted sangat.. da deleted da pun dua2 tu. anddd, blogger was my purrrfect choice! ^^ til now, mata aku tk berapa ok and ade eyebags.. u know, panda eyes. haihh sabo jelerr...

aku bukan je HTC ITC(ehh?) geek but also an OTAKU ANIME&MANGA! ^^ hehe oh and i love japanese stuff, jmovies, jrock, jpop. kyaaaa~♥ ahahaha.. seriously, bila kita da into something yg kita suke... automatically kita akn lupakan sebarang bende2 yg mmbuatkan kita sedih or sakit hati.. insyaAllah... perkara yg baik akan sentiasa datang kepada kita... im just being me.. me, myself & i... ape2 kesalahan or aku ade buat anda rase menyampah kat aku.. minta maaf sgt2...

actually, ape yg aku tulis ni semuanya.... random kottt. hahaha

apapun, main title should be... HAPPY CALMY MAY! :)

HAC/HKK day photos :)

2011-04-28T19:22:00.001+08:00

hot day at skool..

2011-04-28T13:25:00.005+08:00

hari ni memang best sangat2!! & sungguh memenatkan... (~.~) kene snap pic sana sini. i really do enjoyed it. tapi dalam kepala otak ni, agak.. tk tenteram (._."), aku rase betul2 conscious! but i tried to keep myself calm.

then, bila sampai je kat dewan skolah.. badan seriouslyyy berpeluh, cuak lagi! kalau tk caye, tanye suhaily. dia pun peluh2 badan jugak. hahah. ade time tu tibe2 pulak problem ngan dslr cikgu tu.. flash tknak keluar! aaa (@A@)~ then, i realised one thing... terpusing 1 function ni, ape ntah. tk buat full auto pun. ahaha tp naseb baek gambar2 semua ok.. heeeee :D

so, at lastttt.. dapat jugak aku jumpa kak S~♥ lovee herr so much, rindu sangat2! ktorg sembang macam2 hal. aku rase relieved yg kak S tanye aku pasal "so, macam mana perjalanan hidup?", aku pun yeahh.. bole laa, ok je. biase2.. hehe. & dia ade cakap2 pasal si dia & i was like ohh yeke.. hmm tape la, lantak dia la. haha. kak S tibe2 tanye "masih tak dapat lupakan dia ke?" aku pun geleng2, "tak..." kak S macam hampeh je.. kecewa je. aku sambung pulak cakap! "tapi kak S, sy terus terang cakap yg sy rase skarang da tade ape2 da pasal dia.. rase benci pun ade kot, & taknak mengharapkan ape2 lagi laa dari dia.." (i mean, yea laa.. buat ape nak fikir macam2 imaginasi yg klau bole terjadi.. sedangkan its useless u know.. dia bukannya fikir pasal aku kan? hmmphh...), kak S pun angguk2, "bagus2.. *senyum.." :) kak S suruh aku cari yg lain tapi aku taknakkk.. taknak bercinta lagi, tolong laaa D: & macam biase la, kak S bagi nasihat.. supaya blajar sgguh2 utk ujian pertengahan tahun nanti. YOSHH! (>o<)/

& yeahhhh, thus, aku tlah mndapat anugerah cemerlang drpd wakil En. Said b Abdul Manaf. agak nyesal jugak sebab aku terlupa nak salam kat pengetua!!! (ToT) nervous sangat2.. otak berpusing2! then, mula la tugas snap pic balek.. aku ngan suhaily asyik2 change shift je. haha. lastly, kak ijah da jadi tokoh plajar skolah da.. best student. ntah.. tibe2 je.. time tu aku terkeluar airmata.. takkan sebab si dia kot... or, aku memang happy laa yg kak ijah tu, hasrat dia tlah tercapai kot.. aku tau ape yg kak ijah inginkan dlm hidup tapi aku tk sure macam mana nak cakap. well, asalkan mak dia happy.. betul2 happy untuk dia.

da balek rumah ni pun, rase nak nanges lagi je.. ntah la wei, hati ni betul2 kene effect. mcm da kene serang ngan flamethrower je.. dia buat aku macam ni.. lepas tu biarkan macam tu je. ade ke patut? seriously tgh nanges skarang ni... but yes, i have to be strong. biar laa ape nak jadi.. SOO!! da abes ceremony kat dewan tu, aku trus beli air soya.. nasi lemak.. kek coklat.. lagi, jelly coconut tu.. haaa, melantak semua.. abes duit rm15 tinggal rm4 :) hehe.. kita enjoy life yeah? yeahhh? ok ok? hahaha ^^ pics, coming soon!

a letter to a girl .

2011-04-27T17:36:00.004+08:00

hariii niiiiiiii memangg besttt cangatttt2! awww~! XD
Athirah akhirnya datang ke skola.. ade laa talk-to-talk ngan someone tu, pasal ape yg aku mention last entry ago. rsenye masalah da settle, but still, ade je.. something wrong somewhere sometimes kan? Athirah taknak 1 couple tu gadoh2 or ape2 jela. however, ape yg best cgt2 hr ni tu sbab.. aku ngan Athirah... berlakon.. whahahaha! memang best kott. dia brlakon jadi si dia. macam2 hal! sampai dialog skrip pun macam ape jee! asyik2 kene repeat, tk abes2. then, Athirah ajak pegi tandas jap.. dari area kantin tu, ktorg brlakon balek.. konon si dia nak jumpe aku laa nii, aku pun pegi kat dia.. cakap laa "haa buat ape nk jumpe sy?" banyak kali kott, gelak2.. sampai Athirah suruh aku ulang balek. penat ulang alik ni. hahaha! sampai laa balik skola pun same, or sbelum balek, kitorg saje jalan2 kat padang skolah sbab cikgu tk masuk klas pun. so, the conversation pun move on laa. hmm.. bile pikir2 balek, kalau ape yg Athirah cakap smua tu.. wlaupun hanya sekadar lakonan.. kan best, klau betul2 si dia yg cakap smua2 tu. haihh (T~T) konon si dia still rindu lagi kat someone.. aku pun "sape someone tu?", Athirah(si dia) cakap "ade laa.. dia ade kat sini tp saje buat tk tau pulak.." as if laa kan. ade jugak part2 yg Athirah tu memang lakon macam g*mp**g! hahaha aku pun "EEEE ******!!", Athirah pun "relax amy! relax! ni aku, Athirah ni! hahaha" dahsyat sungguh kot. overall, memang best! rase macam betul2 je! ahahaha.. so, yeahh.. esok bermula laa HKK/HAC. wish me luck! (>O<)/ aku betul2 nervous & excited nihh.. anyway, these are my best friends :) click here to view! ♥ love them damn much !

ame .

2011-04-26T22:52:00.001+08:00

http://www.rainymood.com/

sejak 2 3 4 5 6 7 hari ni tade hujan pun (=3=).. tp tape, sebab mudah2an hr khamis ni semuanya berjalan dgn lancar. tadi raptai penuh pun memang amatttt memenatkan! panas & bosan pulak tu.. da laa Athirah tk datang. ishhh then suddenly timbul masalah antara Athirah dgn 1 couple ni. cinta 3 segi? nahhh, Athirah tade bf da.. sebab da kene curang (u.u") but yeahh, kadang2 aku takut jugak.. kalau2 dia tu.. tipu aku.. pasal hal macam2. aku sbnarnya da lama bersabar ngan dia (._.) tp aku taknak kehilangan dia.. satu2nya best friend.. hmm, ntah laa.. dia slalu bg semangat kat aku. dr taun lpas lagi. mostly, pasal si dia.. dia je yg knows everythingg btol2 everything gile2, sebab yelaa, dia faham prasaan aku kan. suatu perasaan timbul, jantung berdegup sampai rase penat pun ade sebab macam sedang berlari laa.. organ bergerak2, mesti la penat kan? bila penat tu, air keluar.. peluh keluar.. dan, termasuklah air d mata. air mengalir.. sampai kering. kononlah kering! padahal, kite boleh mnangis lagi.. macam, lautan d bumi ni. sampai bila2 takkan kering. kalau kering.. panas kering la bumi kite ye. huhu. however, let's just hope... for the best !

humans vs gears .

2011-04-25T17:07:00.003+08:00

only available in XBOX 360.. nothing would make me happier than seeing all of this on PC ♥ as if.... (T~T)

a few years ago, when i was a kid, i played this very cool 2D game after the sequences of KOF, my brother bought this pcgame Guilty Gear. i gamed it. the release of its sequel GG X, GG XX, GGXX #Reload, GGXX AC, GG Isuka, and this latest one, GG 2 Overture(which is in 3D graphs)
simple plot that is,
in GG, Sol killed Justice.

in GG X we were introduced Dizzy, who was daughter of Justice. Rumours of Sol being father as he couldn't finish her. They feign Dizzy's death.

in GG 2 Ky Kiske is married to daughter of Justice, Dizzy. Sin is son of Ky Kiske and he calls Sol Badguy "old man". Ky trusted that Sol would take care of Sin.

overall, Sol & Ky are rivals and friends.

thanks to Daisuke Ishiwatari, for being the creator of this game.. (^_^)v yeahhh!

that is why,
Heaven or Hell - Let's Rock :)

HAC/HKK .

2011-04-25T14:04:00.002+08:00

mcm pelik je, tapi short form bg hari anugerah cemerlang/hari kokurikulum. taun lepas memang best sangat2! aku ade terlibat dlm kokurikulum bg klab prmainan tradisional. mcm2 ade. jualan & pameran. satu2nya memori time tu, si dia senyum kat aku mase aku kat depan gerai MPP. sweet sangat2 (T~T)... tp, whatever laa.. taun ni pulak, insyaallah semuanya akn brjalan dgn lancar, tenang & gembira! taun ni aku tade terlibat dlm koko tp sebaliknya, aku tlah mndpat surat jemputan hari anugerah cemerlang, plajar terbaik ting. 4 2010 bg aliran sastera. yayy~ congrats me. haha. however, alhamdulillah raptai bg HAC/HKK hari ni bole tahan laaa & memangggg agak memenatkan.. jalan sana sini, asyik dok berdiri tengah2 panas.. naseb baek bukan tengah hari. haihhh~ ^^;

dotage & discretion .

2011-04-23T14:52:00.000+08:00

i guess, he was just playing around back then.

it was just me who thought it was more than that.

at least, that's what i thought until recently.

to be honest, i don't even remember it all that clearly anymore..

that just means that back then,

it was that traumatizing.

perasaan .

2011-04-21T16:19:00.002+08:00

aku benganggg sangat2 :'(
there was a HUGEE gorilla stole my kuey teow at the kantin (-_-") totally, sooo dissatisfied . ade ke patut aku mintak kuey teow kat makcik kantin, makcik tu baru nak bagi kat aku tibe2 dia terbagi kat gorilla dari zoo mane ntah yg mintak kuey teow tuu.. bikin panass weiii! memang saje betul dia tu.. hehh, sabar jelaa (T~T)
apapun, benda da lepas.. walaupun, gorilla tu slalu je buat aku bengang. nak kata tk puas hati? memang pun, tapi jenis haiwan macam tu tk boleh nak diubahkan lagi laa.. da perangai mcm hipokrit, suke show offfff aje! maleh nak cite daa.. yg paling besttt, hari ni AT LAST Athirah datang jugakk ke skolah.. rindu dia sgt2! time dia baru datang, aku memang nak peluk dia tapi dia malu2 nanti org tengok, segann laa kononnya. so, kami pun jalan2.. sembang2. aku betul2 risau ttg kesihatan dia, darah tinggi katanya. sebab terlebih makan, terlalu emosi dan banyak berfikir. aku cakap laa aku rindu kat dia, seksaaaa kot tanpa dia di sisi. so, aku pun cakap "nak peluk.. :(", dia pun "olololololo~" *hugsss* ♥♥ so, yes, i'm really hoping that THINGS will get BETTER! memang tk sangka laa.. time BM tadi, ade kawan ni.. baru je kena broken heart. ade buat ujian lisan, dia pegi ambik tajuk pasar perasaan. lepas abis bace2 tu, aku pun tanye laa soalan "ape yg ang faham ttg perasaan?" igtkan dia akn cakap berdasarkan fikiran otak dia sendiri but, its okay laa ==" hahaha, jawapan dia pun agak memuaskan laa jugak. bagi aku, perasaan ni macam .. suatu luahan atau emosi yg bertetap di hati seseorang.. mahupun, perasaan itu sendiri terkeluar kepada luaran drpd hati. yeahhh.... i've got too much inspiration of today. many things happened.............. zzz

things going well :)

2011-04-18T23:54:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah hari ni, aku tlah mmbantu kawan ku yg comel loteyy~ well, kawan aku ni sedara aku jugak. i would do anything for her as long as i love her ♥
meeting ps petang tadi agak .. memuaskan, no hal kott. asalkan tugas mcm biasa, sentiasa djalankan. anyway, best sangat2 aku tlah dapat surat jemputan utk ke majlis anugerah cemerlang! memang best ahhh, my dream came true weii ! (>O<)/
hmm, these days.. so many problem happened. even police involved. not really serious for now because insyaallah, things will be okay ..

at lasttt ,

2011-04-17T22:28:00.001+08:00

aku da berjaya buatkan org hapee :)

Sad is my best friend :(

2011-04-16T22:56:00.001+08:00

same goes with Pain .

dull ..

2011-04-15T21:15:00.003+08:00

sejak semalam lagi aku ingat nak makan banyak2..
nii Suneka punye pasal laa niii! ahaha its not that i'm blaming her but kira ni macam semangat laa. aku skarang nak makan makanan berlemak.. abang aku cakap jangan makan banyak, jangan jadi macam dia nanti susah. errr, aku bukannya nak jadi gemok betul2 gemok tu. cuma, nak kasi berisi sikit je.. especially tangan ni. pakai jam tangan pun longgar... pdhal da saiz palingggg kecik da. hahaha. and of course, bak kata mak aku, aku memang bersyukur dgn badan ni.. seriously, aku ni memang kurus kering. there is one thing yg people ade pelik pasal aku.. "i want to be shorter!!! being shorty is cute!" hahaha yeahh, pdhal orang lain nak jadi tinggi. bak kata Athirah, "orang gemok selalunye pendek.. orang kurus cepat tinggi. ape laa org nak jadi tinggi, ang plak nak jadi pendek.." hmm, aku lepas makan je trus baring.. kalau ngantok, tido je. tapi hari ni aku tertido dr pukul 1 lebih sampai petang. ahahaha dahsyat betol !

complication ...

2011-04-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

about love, in the heart and feeling..

asal ramai sgt ade problem pasal cinta? (==")
ahaaaa, biase laa kan. jantung atau lebih biasa dkenali sbg hati, amat laa sensitif!
to anyone or everyone in this world,
good luck in life.. struggle and never giveup!
kadang2 kita trpaksa mengalah dlm ssuatu yg kita rse tk mungkin bole dapat!
so.. it's great to giveup on something that will bring us to a good way.
easy, just follow the flow and let it go streamly~
Suneka cakap aku ni semakin kurus than before..
*sigh, aku kene banyak lagi makan..

aihh, hujan ler .

2011-04-12T15:28:00.001+08:00

hari ni agak busy gile jugak aah... seni is everywhere!
Alhamdulillah keje seni stakat ni da siap..
ade lagi yg akan datang, nak buat olahan lakaran lagii..
aku byk tolong orang hari ni, syukur syukur Alhamdulillah ^^
esok pulak ada sukantara.. haishhh malasnyerrr!!!(>O<)/
tk tau laa dapat pegi ke tak.. tapi wajib.. haihh......
anyway, kantin skarang ni da ade ICE CREAM (*3*)

(no title) .

2011-04-11T15:41:00.000+08:00

mulai hari ni, aku mok focus kpd study !
& thats final :)

realising, apologizing .

2011-04-10T21:32:00.000+08:00

things getting change everytime, everyday, even every week! they're like, suddenly wanting to change themselves.. and, saying 'sorry' to whoever they think that as if they did something wrong to them. and some of them are like, they doesn't want people to cork into their problems, like 'stay the hell out of here' or something. mostly about love, you know. and life, naturally they just think that they're not needed in this world. it's not like that they hate life so much, wait.. i think they do. people just sucked into a lotsa problem. many problems in life.. whatever it is, to me, there's always a solution. problem at home, at school.. in the heart and feeling. when there's too much of it, people could be.. feel very tiring. there is also a someone that is 'tired' with life. some of them are just giving up so easily, but it's actually, they shouldn't do that. for good people.. i mean, very goood people, in the terms of religion, life is something that we should worth for. appreciate it for who we are and where are we from. things could be very complicated.. and they actually should be. so thats why, when it became complicated.. it will be complicated as we try to solve it down. and yeah, this is life.. what can we do about it? :)

long kiss good bye ~

2011-04-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

lagu ni best sangat2 ! ♥ hehe
lyric dia.. perghhh, bermakna gile2 ah !

h-ot !

2011-04-09T16:26:00.001+08:00

hari ni panasss gileee... @_@; nak mandi pun agak malas.. hahah
apapun, hari sabtu ni sepatutnya ada skolah tapi terbangun lambat pulak..
yg best tadi aku tgk cite hindustan tv2, Enthiran.. pasal android robot.
ada plakon rajinikanth(biasenyer panggil muthu, haha) ngan aiswarya rai.
semalam aku da download jmovie hanamizuki, skarang tgh download jdrama boku to kanojo no XXX.. hehe ♥
anywayy, aku memang hapeee sekaiichi hatsukoi new vol. da kluar!

Jang geun suk - take care, my bus .

2011-04-08T22:08:00.001+08:00

LYRIC:

jang geun suk take care, my bus
Like crazy Just
Run Run Run Running
Go Go butakhae My Bus
To the Stage
My Heart is
Beat Beat Beat Beating
Boom Boom simjangkkaji
Deullyeooneun heorikein saundeu
Nopi Jump Jump Jump
Paran haneul wiro
Meolli Quick Quick Quick
Dallyeoganeungeoya Start You and I

Nari seon meorikkeut heurin Telepathy
Nal joineun kkum I'm crazy now
Dalkomhan Jasmine hyang
Tto banbokdoeneun Stress
I want to be free
Kkumui Paradise OH
Geu goseuro galteya My friend
Don't think Just run OH
Kkumkkuneun naui badaro
Like crazy Just
Run Run Run Running
Go Go butakhae My Bus
To the Stage
My Heart is
Beat Beat Beat Beating
Beat Beat Beat Beating
Boom Boom simjangkkaji
Deullyeooneun heorikein saundeu
Nopi Jump Jump Jump
Paran haneul wiro
Meolli Quick Quick Quick
Dallyeoganeungeoya Start You and I

Never to fall down

Jidokhan yeongi neul meonghan Television
Nal kkaeuneun Noise I'm tired now
Sseudisseun hyeokkeutgwa tto kkumteuldaeneun Strain
I want to be free
Kkumui Blue Sky OH
Geugoseuro galteya My friend
Saecheoreom Fly to the sky
Neoui nalgaereul tago

Like crazy Just
Run Run Run Running
Go Go butakhae My Bus
To the Stage
My Heart is
Beat Beat Beat Beating
Boom Boom simjangkkaji
Deullyeooneun heorikein saundeu
Nopi Jump Jump Jump
Paran haneul wiro
Meolli Quick Quick Quick
Dallyeoganeungeoya Just Run Run Run
Never to fall down

Butakhae My Bus

Never to fall down

Butakhae My Bus

oh menarik gila kot?

2011-04-08T17:17:00.001+08:00

waaaa, hari ni gua sungguhhhh terkejut gila woohh..
time rehat kat skolah tadi, tiba2 je.. TIBA-TIBA ada JEJAKA ~~JAMBU~~ HENSEM mintak tolong aku utk belikan bihun goreng.. "amelia, amelia, tolong belikan bihun.."
memang ~~shit~~ ARGHH! tersilap sungguh laa kan..
mula2 da ingat dalam kepala otak "ok ok.. bihun goreng..",
tiba2, da dapat bihun goreng tu.. rase macam silap pulak.. aku pun trus tuka la "eh, nak bihun sup!".. then, suddenly si jejaka tu cakap ape ntah tk ingat laa tapi ayatnya lebih kurang "eh, takpe la takpe la.. terima kasih..", time tu aku agak blurr kot.. maluuu~ (=o=")
sukeee tu ade laa sikit.. SIKIT JE, just 1%.. haha
yg selebihnya hanya TERKEJUT (x_x)
lain laa kalau si dia yg mintak... tapi dia da takde da kat skolah.. kalau ade pun, jangan nak harap laaaaa... orangnya pemalu sungguh deh! (>_>")
oh yeaa, lepas dia mintak.. ada pulak classmate aku mintak tolong belikan teh o ais.. aiyahhh~
kira macam, syukur Alhamdulillah aku tolong orang.. HA AH LAA! hari ni kan hari jumaat, waaaa! dapat laa pahala~ heheheh ;)
however, hari ni first time aku makan ice cream kat kantin tu.. aku makan pun time lepas skolah, tk sempat nak duty tadi.. banyak main2.. haishh (T~T)

waaaa first time kot ..

2011-04-07T20:48:00.001+08:00

.. ada orang 'les' nak kapel ngan aku... (o_o")
eeh.... mata aku bulat ke? ahahaha
memang complicated ni.. tk boleh jadi niii... (>_<)/

hi-sa-shi-bu-ri ne?

2011-04-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile...
how are you ladies & ghosts doing? :)
i'm baik baikkk aja d sini.. heheh
been busy with school, and my bad health.. (T~T)
bila aku mula demam, punya laa lambat nak sembuh..
2 days ago i didn't go to school because i went to clinic
fuhhh, punya laa sakit time kena check darah.
sape la yg tk takut jarum? haishh sabo jelaa...
however, what happened to love?
bak kata Athirah, "biar jela..."
aku rase ringan skarang ni.. tk perlu nak d takutkan lagi..
takut tu ada laa sikit2.. hmm..
apapun yg terjadi..
apa saja laa yg terjadi, jadi la..
life goes on!